Inhabit you as a forest

Chapter 104

As the temperature turns cooler, the trees full of osmanthus release the last ray of fragrance and then go to sleep, and the city enters the long winter.

Cheng Juan used to dislike winter the most. His clothes were not warm enough and ugly. Working and studying were more difficult. People would be more desperate and at a loss when they were shivering.

Now that the company and home have air conditioners, she has no shortage of clothes to wear, but it is still difficult to fall in love with seasons that she did not like before.

She opened the door and saw Wen Xu, whom she hadn't seen for a while, and asked her, "Is it cold outside?"

The internal organs set up a bonfire frame neatly, and the whole body was warmed up.

She hadn't seen Wen Xu for a long time because of a misunderstanding.

After changing her job, she quickly got used to the new job. She has always been the king of paper and has a flexible mind.

This job does not need to be with Wen Xu day and night, it is full of challenges while being free.At the beginning of the job, I realized that the life under Wen Xu was too easy, maybe the boss was tired, or maybe he gave her too much water.

In Wen Xu's words, they are acquaintances, and they should take care of acquaintances.

Wen Xu didn't mention her position, and she didn't have words like gun/friend, lover, and canary, so naturally she wouldn't put a more pleasant and decent identity on her.

The most talked about is "acquaintances".

After sleeping for several years, it is indeed familiar enough.

The debt owed by Cheng Juan to Sheng Qi was repaid with interest on the day when he became a friend, Sheng Qi accepted it generously, thanked her for helping to keep it, and happily said that it was like a "huge sum" accidentally found in old clothes .

The huge sum of money that made people cramped back then is now just a small change that can be turned around at any time, and they can take it out and accept it easily.

But that precious affection will not depreciate accordingly, and will not become an old clothes.On the contrary, in the years that we haven't seen each other for a long time, it has grown into a green tree with luxuriant branches and leaves, stretching towards the sun and the distance.

In early autumn, Cheng Juan went to the city where Sheng Qi lived, which was not close to the Yujiang River.

Yujiang is their hometown, where they had a beautiful and happy life. Her grandmother is buried here, and her relatives and friends are waiting for her... There are too many reasons for her to come back.

But she has been away for many years, hiding far away, not daring to step in.Just for that one reason - she can't be with the person she likes anymore.

From this perspective, Cheng Juan complained more than Wen Lian.

Wen Lian personally destroyed a beam of light.

Cheng Juan could understand Wen Lian if he didn't bring personal emotions. It would be difficult for a man like Wen Lian to choose Sheng Qi firmly.

Cheng Juan knew that Wen Lian wanted to find Sheng Qi, but after finding out that Sheng Qi didn't even contact him, he didn't continue.She had given up on Sheng Qi a long time ago, and she came to ask herself just to seek comfort, and it was fine if she couldn't get in touch.

Or rather, he would breathe a sigh of relief.

They all had a way to find Sheng Qi. Cheng Juan's house was very close to Sheng Qi's aunt's house, so it was not difficult to get a contact.But Yuan Xingren chose to "disappear", none of them wanted to disturb Sheng Qi's new life.

In her and Wen Lian's life, including everyone in Yu Jiang, Sheng Qi was not necessary, they didn't need to look for her, and they didn't need to expect her to come back, so Sheng Qi didn't plan to come back.

Cheng Juan thought calmly.

Sheng Qi didn't go back to Yujiang, Cheng Juan wanted to find her.

But until she arrived at her destination, she didn't think about how to tell Sheng Qi that I came all the way to see you.

This is a bit abrupt, will Sheng Qi be frightened by her, will she feel pressure?

In the end, Cheng Juan didn't contact Sheng Qi, and simply took it as a trip, and went around a strange city.

She used to have no spare money to travel. When she was in college, her classmates always had various activities, such as mountain climbing, camping, star chasing, watching performances, and sightseeing. She couldn't have any of them.

She promised that when the economic conditions were better, she would take the whole family out for fun.It's a pity that it couldn't be realized until her mother passed away. How could the conditions be considered good? She didn't even pay off the debt.

She didn't tell Wen Xu about the itinerary, because they only met on Wednesday, and Wen Xu didn't make an appointment with her before the weekend, so she thought there was no need to meet.

After all, we have known each other for too many years, so we don't need to be so clingy.Sometimes when two people meet, they just eat, chat about work and gossip, and they may not necessarily do anything when they sleep together.

Cheng Juan didn't understand why they could maintain their improper relationship for so long.

When she just changed jobs, she thought that her "rebellion" would arouse Wen Xu's dissatisfaction, but after she left, it was over when she got cold.

Wen Xu was indeed dissatisfied, and it was limited to pestering her with naive questions like "The new boss or me", not to mention that Cheng Juan needed to work hard when asking, and he had no momentum.

At that time, Cheng Juan knew the rules and knew to coax her to make Mr. Wen feel more comfortable physically and psychologically, and said softly to her, "Of course it's you."

When she arrived in a strange city and was eating alone at a restaurant at night, Wen Xu called and asked her, "Are you at home?"

She suddenly became nervous, "Not here."

"Have you returned to the country again? Didn't you just go back last week?"

Wen Xu's tone sounded rather sad.

Cheng Juan, who originally wanted to tell the truth, changed his mind when he heard this sentence, thinking that Wen Xu would be unhappy if she went home, and if she knew that she ran so far without making a sound, he might lose his temper.

At that time, she will have to get to the bottom of it, and many things will happen. She doesn't want to spoil her good mood, and she doesn't want to be interrogated on the phone.

So he walked along the slope, "Go back tomorrow afternoon, see you in the evening?"

"Well, it's my fault that I was so dizzy yesterday that I forgot to make an appointment with Miss Liu."

Hearing Wen Xu's words, she knew that she was in a better mood again.

Cheng Juan once thought about why Wen Xu was sometimes difficult and willful, and also considered her creditor, so she needed to lose her self-esteem.But for so many years together, she never found it unbearable.

Probably because Wen Xu is too different from her, Wen Xu is a healthy and happy person, loyal to himself, although occasionally moody but very coaxable.

Sometimes Cheng Juan is just perfunctory, but Wen Xu can take it seriously and continue talking with great interest.

After hanging up the phone, Cheng Juan breathed a sigh of relief and continued to eat.

The next day Wen Xu sent a message asking her what time she would be back. She was in the scenic spot and said she wouldn't be home until four o'clock, so she could make dinner and let Wen Xu come over then.

The environment of the scenic spot is too noisy, and it is rare for Cheng Juan to travel.She didn't think about Sheng Qi or Wen Xu, and after replying to this message, she only lived in her own world.

Under normal circumstances, she should and will definitely think a little bit more, why did Wen Xu ask her the time.

So when Wen Xu sent her the location in her home town, her phone was still in airplane mode, and it was half an hour later when she saw it.

Of course she couldn't appear in front of Wen Xu.

So she called and confessed, "Sorry, I'm not at home."

Wen Xu's voice was low, "Where is it?"

"Airport, I'll take a taxi back now."

Wen Xu hung up the phone directly.

At that time, Cheng Juan discovered that people cannot easily tell lies. What was originally a trivial matter will become an uncontrolled fire because of lies, and a little carelessness can burn down the built buildings.

She was just going on a trip, and she didn't want to see Sheng Qi when she got there, because she knew Sheng Qi well, and if she wanted to meet, Sheng Qi would have asked her out a long time ago.

Telling Wen Xu, Wen Xu didn't believe it, and asked her, "What can't you say when you go out to play? Are you with someone else, or did you go to meet someone?"

"Just me."

"Then why did you lie to me?"

Cheng Juan thought she had already lied once, and she should confess once more, "Because one more thing is worse than one less thing."

When Wen Xu wanted to quarrel, he always focused on the key points, and asked her coldly, "Do you think I'm troublesome?"

Cheng Juan didn't know what to say, she had experience, and Wen Xu would blow up anything she said.Because she was wrong today, she should apologize, it's normal for Wen Xu to be angry.

"It's true that I'm troubled. I asked you where you were just yesterday, and today I got nervous and drove an hour to pick you up."

"sorry."

Apart from apologizing, Cheng Juan thought of a solution and seriously assured her, "I will definitely tell you when I leave Yujiang in the future."

Wen Xu shook his head, slammed the door and left.

Cheng Juan sat at home, in a daze until dark, trying to understand one thing.

She promised that she was wrong, she should promise not to lie to Wen Xu again.But such assurances are false. It is impossible not to lie, and all people lie every day.

Fortunately, it's coming soon. If there are no accidents, she will be able to save enough money to pay back to Wen Xu next year.

When the time comes, the relationship will end automatically, and Wen Xu no longer needs to be angry with her and be deceived by her.

Thinking of this, she realized that something was wrong. Wen Xu didn't sound like a "gold master" anymore.

What does Wen Xu look like?

Cheng Juan didn't dare to think about those three words, she couldn't expect Wen Xu to like her, and she didn't want to like Wen Xu with confidence.

Animals longing for freedom and dignity should not trap themselves in their cages with greed, and should not be sentimental and use cages as pets.

Wen Xu didn't care about her that much, and she hated love, she knew it better than anyone else.As for herself, probably "habit" is at work, and she will inevitably be intoxicated during the period.

One or two years can still be regarded as debt repayment, thinking about ending it sooner.But the time has been three or four years.

Now thinking about the word "end", she found that it was very harsh, and she felt her ears hurt before she said it.

In fact, she slowed down the progress of deposits and paid back to relatives and friends first. Some debts have been owed for too many years, so it is not easy to delay.

And those who owe Wen Xu are not in a hurry, after all, she has been working overtime for free as interest.

But it's time to pay it back, and if it continues like this, she will be bound by "habits" and be in a ridiculous situation.

Some accounts will become unclear, and you don't even know how much interest to pay.

Because of that lie, Wen Xu ignored Cheng Juan for six weeks. Cheng Juan knew he was wrong, and at first sent messages every day.Said that he could make an apology, in any way.

Wen Xu ignored her.

On the fifth day, Cheng Juan was about to continue apologizing, but suddenly realized that her identity was not qualified to coax Wen Xu.

Wen Xu is so disappointed in her now that she doesn't want to talk to her, it's better for her to calm down.

So she sent the last message "It's all my fault, you can punish me in any way you want, I won't bother you for now".

After a few rains, the temperature dropped sharply, and winter came suddenly.

The change of seasons made Cheng Juan realize that this time it was really over.

Wen Xu was tired.

After her clever lie.

Cheng Juan had been waiting for this relationship to end, but she never thought about it again.Now that this matter came before her suddenly, she was as calm as if she had been prepared, living and working as usual.

It's just that when she was tidying up the closet on the weekend, she saw Wen Xu's clothes left at her house. She was caught off guard, and a hole was torn in her heart by the soft fabric.

She played back the last time Wen Xu came over in her mind.

Wen Xu was wearing pajamas and pillowed on her lap to watch videos, holding up the phone casually, Cheng Juan was watching her while replying to work news, worried that she would not be able to hold it steady, and the phone hit her face.

After swiping to the beauty, Wen Xu looked at it twice with relish, and suddenly realized where he was.

So he looked at her with guilt.

Cheng Juan just met her guilty look, and his heart instantly softened.I wasn't angry at first, and said to the steps, "It's really beautiful."

Wen Xu suddenly realized that it was impossible for Cheng Juan to be jealous, and he never was.

Not to mention that she looks at beauties, even if she brings someone to Cheng Juan, Cheng Juan can smile and shake hands with them.

She pressed the screen to her arms, and commanded domineeringly, "You are not allowed to watch it!"

Cheng Juan froze for a moment, "Okay, I won't watch it."

Wen Xu got up, straddled her lap, put his arms around the back of her neck and said, "You can only look at me."

Cheng Juan looked up at her slightly. Her hair was fluffy and thick, because she didn't have any stress at all, and she had enough sleep. She had fair skin, rich lips, deep eye sockets, and three-dimensional facial features.

It was okay when I first met Wen Xu, at that time Cheng Juan didn't know how straight or bent he was, and he just looked at beautiful women.After having sex with Wen Xu, she couldn't bend anymore.

Every time I look at Wen Xu, I feel palpitations and intoxication. I want to crush her in my arms in an instant, and want to enshrine her in a high place for a long time.

Wen Xu looked dangerous when he smiled, with his hands clearly resting on the back of his neck, but Cheng Juan felt that his throat was hard to breathe.

Mr. Wen's double-standard mentality never hides it. She can see beautiful women herself, but she doesn't allow others to see them.

But in the relationship between the two of them, double standards can reasonably exist, Cheng Juan didn't get entangled, and immediately agreed to her.

The next morning, Wen Xu's back hurt and his legs were sore, and he "huh" resentfully said, "You have a grudge and revenge on me."

This is wronged, she just puts her heart into working overtime, how dare she take revenge on Mr. Wen.

Do not admit to death.

Wen Xu gouged her out, finished breakfast, and strolled around the house in pajamas.He thought the sun was dazzling, so he flamboyantly wore sunglasses and lay on the balcony listening to the neighbors chatting downstairs.

Sunglasses go against baggy pajamas.

But Wen Xu has always appeared in her life against the law, they are people from two worlds.

Now Wen Xu has left.

Just as Cheng Juan put away his clothes, the doorbell rang.

Wen Xu appeared in front of her.

I haven't seen each other for a month and a half, from early autumn to the winter that Cheng Juan hates, people who I thought I would never meet suddenly visit again.

Seeing that she didn't wear much, Cheng Juan asked her, "Is it cold outside?"

"I'm hungry, are you free to cook?"

Cheng Juan helped her find a cotton mop, "Do it, it will take a while."

"I can wait." Wen Xu sneezed a little.

She walked into the house as if nothing happened, drank the hot tea Cheng Juan brought her, and played with her mobile phone on the sofa wrapped in Cheng Juan's blanket.

It was probably really cold, so she put a blanket over her head, wrapping her whole body in the blanket.

Cheng Juan secretly looked at her for a while when he was free to cook, and was amused by her appearance. Wen Xu is over 30 this year, how can he be as cute as a child who hasn't grown up.

But with Wen Xu's personality and living environment, it's still the same at about 40 or 50 years old.

It's not obtrusive, she's just cute.

Cheng Juan walked over, helped her take off the blanket on top of her head, hugged her with the blanket in his arms, and kissed her on the top of her head.

Her series of movements were natural and coherent, she didn't think about anything, she just did what she wanted.

And Wen Xu didn't even seem to be able to speak after being hugged tightly by her, and the person who used to talk a lot was silent for a long time, neither looked at the phone nor moved again.

Cheng Juan took the initiative to say, "You are cold, do you want to lie down on the bed for a while?"

Yujiang does not have heating in winter, and the condition of the house she rents is mediocre, and the living room has no air conditioner.

After being stupid for a while, Wen Xu returned to his original nature, and said harshly, "You want to sleep with me before I eat?"

Being wronged by her kindness, Cheng Juan didn't explain, and smiled again, "Okay, the meal will be ready soon."

She didn't ask why Wen Xu came to her again, all she knew was that when she fell asleep with Wen Xu in her arms that night, what she thought was that they were going to spend another winter together.

And she was secretly delighted.

She was afraid that the laughter in her heart would be too loud and would disturb the sleeping Wen Xu, so she held her breath and lost sleep until the early hours of the morning.

She didn't overly criticize her mentality of serving others but still secretly happy. Although she knew it was not good, she couldn't control all her thoughts.I have no choice but to do whatever I want, and do whatever I get to, without torturing myself.

She calmly and reservedly enjoyed the life of regaining Wen Xu.

After Sheng Qi expressed his desire to return to Yujiang, Cheng Juan spared no effort to help her plan, and finally settled on the house next door to Wen Lian's house.

It's been a long time since we saw each other, and with the passage of time, Sheng Qi was much shy when we got together, the change was bigger than she thought, and she looked more quiet.

The girl in my memory passed the village at high speed on a brand new and beautiful bicycle, faster than the boy, wanton and lively.

But the person in front of her spoke softly and smiled gracefully. She praised, "Cheng Juan, you are so beautiful now."

The mouth is still the same as before.

Cheng Juan didn't discuss Sheng Qi's matter with Wen Xu.

One was because Wen Xu was very upset when she saw the photo with Sheng Qi that she had carefully hidden when she was helping her pack her things during the previous move.

The second is because I am about to save enough money.After the beginning of spring, she gritted her teeth and returned the money to Wen Xu in one go.

Wen Xu's expression looked disappointed, as if he had lost more property than 30 yuan.

"Give me so much, can you turn around recently?"

"There's enough to spend."

All the stones in Cheng Juan's heart fell to the ground. From now on, every salary belongs to him.She can prepare to buy a house and a car, can have leisure and entertainment, and can make her family's life better.

They are also over.

But after all, she got used to listening to Wen Xu's words, even if she didn't owe each other, she couldn't be the first to say the sentence "don't contact me in the future".

She couldn't tell.

Wen Xu has given her too many things, besides the visible ones, there are also invisible ones that are unclear.

After chatting about the money, Wen Xu didn't say any concluding remarks, and drove the car into her community as usual, and went upstairs with her.

Cheng Juan understood that it was the last time, and everything disappeared after dawn.

So after Wen Xu stopped, she couldn't bear to just fall asleep like this, and wanted to change places to continue.Wen Xu didn't allow it, held her down and said with a smile, "I'm running out of strength, don't think about it, next time."

Next time... Cheng Juan looked at her, but did not question her.

Cheng Juan didn't know if he was unwilling or not?

In short, watching Wen Xu smile at her at that moment, she couldn't kill that smile by saying something disappointing.

Obviously she doesn't owe this person anything, but she can't be cruel, but she also knows that it's time for them to end, this kind of relationship is not good.So her thoughts and their relationship were at an impasse.

She is not as calm and enjoyable as before.

Every date, her absent-mindedness is obvious, but Wen Xu pretends not to see it.

Until one time when Wen Xu told her about an embarrassing incident about a friend, Wen Xu was so happy that she just nodded out of her mind.

Wen Xu suddenly became quiet, so quiet that Cheng Juan bit the bullet and looked at her, waiting for someone to lose his temper.

She didn't show any signs of getting angry, she became depressed, and rubbed the center of her brows wearily, "You've finished paying the money, don't you even want to smile at me?"