NABC Chapter 33 Chapter 33
Chapter 33 Chapter 33
In the blink of an eye, it was June, and Ji Tunan was working part-time to earn money while preparing for the exam.
He thought that after he finished the exam and saved enough money, he would take his father to see a psychiatrist.
There are two days before the high school entrance examination, Ji Tunan stopped his part-time job, and planned to prepare for the high school entrance examination.
It's June, whether it's hot or not, and it's not yet midsummer, and the only fan in the room makes a rough sound.Ji Tunan leaned over his desk to write questions, and the room was very quiet with the cicadas chirping on the trees outside the window.Liu Limei hasn't come home yet, and there is no quarrel at home.
"Squeak--" Ji Tunan heard his door was opened, he put down his pen, and turned his head.It was Ji Wei who came in.
"Dad? What's the matter? Are you uncomfortable?" Ji Tunan stood up, not knowing why Ji Wei came to him suddenly.
Ji Wei still had no expression on his face, but when he looked closely, there seemed to be some hesitation and intolerance in his eyes.
"I'm fine, I just want to talk to you." Ji Wei walked in and sat beside Ji Tunan's bed.
Ji Tunan felt that his father was a little strange, but it was a good thing that his father could communicate with him. If he could open his heart and speak out what was in his heart, maybe he would not be so depressed all day long.He thought so, then moved the chair beside the desk to the bed, and sat face to face with Ji Wei.
"Dad, what do you want to say?" Ji Tunan sat down and looked at Ji Wei who was sitting beside the bed.
Ji Wei looked at Ji Tunan with a gentle gaze, which was mixed with guilt.Ji Wei didn't speak for a long time, as if he was organizing his words.
"Son, you've had a hard time these years." Ji Wei seemed to be asking and sighing, and then patted Ji Tunan on the shoulder after speaking.
Ji Tunan subconsciously wanted to hide for a while, but he realized that the person who came to take pictures of him was Ji Wei, so he held back. Ji Wei seemed to have never been in such intimate contact with himself.Facing Ji Wei's words, he didn't speak.
"I know, it's my father's fault all these years. I'm too weak to take good care of you. Your mother's strong words are harsh, but she gave birth to you after all." Ji Wei said these words, but his eyes changed from Ji Wei's. Tunan floated out of the window.
"I know." Ji Tunan thought Ji Wei was blaming him for losing control of Liu Limei that day, and yelled.
However, Liu Limei has been talking satirically at their father and son all the time, and no one can listen to it. Even a weak person like her father would have resisted before, let alone Ji Tunan.
Ji Tunan thought, recalling Liu Limei's obscene words to them, another anger slowly burned in his heart.
"I have been working at home for more than half a year, and I rely on your mother to make money. I can't say anything to her. She can scold her if she likes. But, son, I feel uncomfortable when your mother scolds you, but Dad, I really don't like it. I know how to resist your mother, for so many years, I have always been scolded by your mother as a worthless person, hehe, I have been scolded a lot, and I really feel that I am a useless person." Ji Wei said that there is a kind of The sense of powerlessness fell on Ji Tunan's heart, adding to his heartache.
"No, Dad, I always think you are very good." Ji Tunan comforted Ji Wei.
He can still study and eat after so many years. It is indeed Ji Wei who has been fighting against Liu Limei. He thinks that Ji Wei is already very good, and Liu Limei is wrong.
"These days, Dad has been feeling uncomfortable. He always thinks wildly in his mind. He always thinks that if he hadn't been with your mother back then, he wouldn't have you, let alone make you suffer." Ji Wei said again Look at Ji Tunan's face.
Only then did he realize that Ji Tunan, who had just passed his 15th birthday, had lost his immature appearance, and had inherited Liu Limei's seven-point appearance, which was very heroic and good-looking.Ji Wei sighed and continued.
Looking at such a father, Ji Tunan was both strange and familiar. What was strange was that Ji Wei had never said these words to him; what was familiar was that Ji Wei still had such a personality, and was still the father who secretly protected him.
Ji Wei looked at his son's pretty and puzzled face, and showed a smile that he hadn't seen for a long time, it was a wry smile.
Then he continued: "Son, the high school entrance examination is about to take place. Dad hopes that you will go far in the future, the farther the better. I know you have been working outside all the time. Have you saved enough money?"
Ji Tunan was surprised. Although he expected that Ji Wei might guess that he had gone to a part-time job, he didn't expect Ji Wei to react in this way. Why did he ask himself if he had saved enough money, and why did he tell himself to go as far as possible?Did Ji Wei not tell himself something?These words today are a bit strange no matter how you think about them.
"I'll take you with me, let's leave this house!" Ji Tunan's eyes were a little urgent, and he grabbed Ji Wei's hand. He always felt that today's father was very strange, and he was afraid that if he didn't hold Ji Wei, he would never be able to hold him in the future Living.
Hearing Ji Tunan's words, Ji Wei gave another wry smile. Looking at his son, his eyes were full of unbearable, and under the light of the lamp, there seemed to be some sparkles.
"Okay, then Dad can rest assured." Ji Wei finished speaking and prepared to get up, planning to go back to the room.Before walking out of the room, he turned his head and glanced at Ji Tunan again, his eyes were heavy, Ji Tunan felt a little out of breath being looked at.
"Dad!" Ji Tunan yelled, and he didn't know why.
Ji Wei nodded and walked out of the room without looking back.
Although Ji Tunan felt that something was wrong, the most important thing right now was the exam. Only when he became stronger could he walk out of this broken and dark day with his father.
Two days passed in a blink of an eye, and the exam followed. On the last day of the exam, Ji Tunan left in a hurry without an umbrella, and the weather forecast said that there would be heavy rain today.
After finishing the last exam, it was already five o'clock in the afternoon. It was supposed to be a sunny summer evening, but today, because of the coming heavy rain and heavy haze, Ji Tunan walked home. He felt that the weight on his body seemed to be lighter at this moment. Some, perhaps because this important exam is over.
When he got home, Ji Tunan took a look at the dining table and found that his father was not sitting there today.Where did you go?
Ji Tunan put the schoolbag back in the room, and suddenly found a bank card on the table, and a piece of paper with six numbers stuck on it.He was a little puzzled, who put the bank card here, and these numbers are passwords?
Almost instantly, Ji Tunan suddenly had a terrible idea in his heart. He put down his bank card, rushed out of the bedroom, and then pushed his father's bedroom hard, but he couldn't push it away.
The door was locked, and there seemed to be a strange smell in the room. Ji Tunan realized that it was the smell of coal.
The thoughts in his heart rose to the peak, and his heart jumped to the extreme in an instant. He searched through all the drawers, trying to find the spare key for Jiwei's bedroom.Finally, in a panic, I found the key.
Ji Tunan's trembling hands almost shook off the key, he couldn't control his hand and inserted the key into the lock cylinder, and he succeeded after calming down for a moment.
Opening the door, a smell of unburned coal poured into Jitunan's nose and throat, very choking!
After entering the room, Ji Tunan saw Ji Wei lying peacefully on the bed. The window of the bedroom was sealed, and the gap was even taped.
Beside the bed was a pot of burnt coals.Ji Wei on the bed was already lifeless.
Ji Tunan almost exhausted all his strength and walked towards the bed. He didn't know the expression on his face, but felt that his throat was about to be blocked, and his heart was tightly grasped by a stranger. beat.
He spoke softly, wondering if he had made a sound: "Dad?" Then he touched Ji Wei's arm with his hand, and there was a dead silence.
Ji Wei seemed to be asleep, lying peacefully on the bed, dressed in his favorite white shirt and black suit pants, and even had his shoes on.
The calm couldn't be any calmer, it seemed that he would wake up at any time.
However, Ji Tunan touched Ji Wei's arm, which was icy cold in the hot June, conveying the most lost soul.
Ji Tunan accepted the reality of Ji Wei's suicide. He wanted to cry, but one couldn't cry under extreme grief. He didn't know what to do.
He didn't know how he called the funeral home, and he didn't know what tone he used to notify Liu Limei.
He is very calm, obviously he will be well soon, he has finished his senior high school entrance examination, and has almost earned enough money. He can take Ji Wei to see a doctor immediately, and then leave Liu Limei and this house.
Why?Only one step away, why did the father commit suicide?Why let him see such a terrible and desperate scene?
Ji Wei loves himself, and he also respects Ji Wei. He has already planned all the follow-up things.However, my father ended all this with his own hands.
What should Ji Tunan do next?He fell into deep despair and helpless confusion.
Otherwise, let's go after dealing with Ji Wei's funeral. Like my father said, the farther you go, the better.
However, what his father said that day clearly made him jealous of Liu Limei.But for a mother like Liu Limei, is it necessary for me to take care of her?Ji Tunan didn't know which step to take.
Dad, why don't you give yourself a clear guideline?How should you choose those words?
Ji Tunan waited for the people from the funeral home to take away Ji Wei's body. He just stood by and watched. After the people left, he took the last thing his father left him---the bank card. Putting it into the schoolbag, he didn't want Liu Limei to see that that woman was unworthy.
But Ji Tunan waited until Liu Limei came home, and saw that her aging face was covered with thick makeup, and there was no expression on her face.
"It's good to die, it's good to die." Liu Limei murmured without any emotion.
He thought that Liu Limei still had some affection for her father.It suddenly softened.
"But she gave birth to you after all, the farther you go, the better." Ji Wei's words lingered in Ji Tunan's ears.
His heart was entangled to the extreme, as if he was tied to two evenly matched forces, the torn soul seemed to come out, he wanted to take a breath.
A few days later, Ji Wei's funeral was over, Liu Limei didn't go to work, and Ji Tunan didn't go to work at home either. The two just stayed at home without saying a word.
After all, Ji Tunan didn't have the heart to leave Liu Limei. Now, Ji Tunan felt a little more relaxed and was thrown back with a bigger stone, which he couldn't throw away!
The author has something to say: the pain of the original family is not so easy to escape.