Thousands of silence

Chapter 54

Everything was as quiet as a deep valley, and the city extinguished all its lights, lazily waiting for the sun of the next day.Xi Nian was sitting in an empty room surrounded by his packed luggage. This was the first time he had returned here in so many days.

The pool of blood in the center of the living room has been cleaned up, and there are still bits and pieces left in the cracks of the floor. He doesn't want to look carefully, but he can't erase the memory of that day.

At that time, he saw the man lying on the ground, dying, as if the entanglement of so many days had dissipated like smoke, the pale face twisted, blurred, and finally disappeared before his eyes. He looked at Liu Cenjin's broad shoulders and deep black Suddenly, there was a suffocating feeling in his eyes, and the pain prevailed.

However, for so many days, from sitting in front of the hospital bed waiting for that person to wake up, to watching another person being taken away, these two people who played the most important role in his life suddenly seemed like happiness Like the love of my life, it has become out of reach.

After Xi Nian packed his luggage, he returned to the hospital, came to the nurse's duty room, and tapped on the glass window lightly. The nurse who was lying on the table was awakened. Seeing Xi Nian blushed, he asked what was the matter.

Xi Nian said, "Please help me inform the patients in 623 that I have to leave."

The nurse looked at him blankly.

Xi Nian turned around to leave, hesitated for a moment, then turned his head and added, "I won't be coming back."

After finishing speaking, a stone in his heart fell to the ground, and he turned and left. This is the explanation he gave him, about their love in the past, and the unreachable future...

"Wait a moment."

The nurse stopped him.

Xi Nian turned around.

"He was discharged 10 minutes ago." The nurse stood up, frowning and said, "The same words were left."

Xi Nian was stunned for a while, his eyes suddenly turned red, and he ran downstairs dragging his luggage.

As if he was transparent, Xi Nian walked through the hospital buildings and neon-lit streets, with his heart pounding into his throat and his brain blank, and the wheels of the suitcase rattled.He hailed a taxi on the side of the road, but it was the delivery time in the early morning, and none of the taxis would stop. He dragged his suitcase very fast, only thinking about running to school.

Twenty minutes later, Xi Nian came downstairs to the teacher out of breath, threw away his suitcase and rushed upstairs. At this moment, he wanted to see the person who opened the door and sat on the sofa. Turning his head, he asked him with cold, harsh eyes: "Why are you back?"

However, Xi Nian opened the door and stepped in. The room was still the same as when he left, without any change.

His heart turned cold in an instant, and while he was thinking about where he would go, Xi Nian thought he was crazy, and if he still loves him, do he still love him now?Xi Nian tried his best to calm down, wiped off the sweat from his forehead, went to the bedroom and opened the closet, which was empty.

After waking up, Xi Nian was finally willing to let himself go, walked out of the room, and couldn't help but want to ask.

Is what I'm chasing after love, or that bit of obsession that I can't let go?

Saying goodbye to the building again, Xi Nian picked up his luggage and walked away silently.

A long time later, a man in a black trench coat carrying a suitcase came down from the fifth floor.When he came to the door of his house on the fourth floor, he gently touched the doorknob, and a slight smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, as if the warmth of that person was still on it.

Maybe this is not the best farewell, but it is the best ending. The two tacitly fulfilled each other.

They have loved, love is thrilling, love to hurt each other, love has become a farce, enough.

He turned and left, maybe never coming back.

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The last time I went to see Liu Cenjin, Xi Nian was wearing a gray woolen sweater, with cute short hair combed, and under his bangs was a pair of eyes full of flames. He was sitting in the meeting room and saw Liu Cenjin through the glass. Jin was brought in, his eyes glowing.

He was wearing a prison uniform, with shaved hair, and a black face with bright eyes.

Sitting in front of the glass window, he smiled at Xi Nian, showing two rows of white teeth.

"You're so pretty," he said.

Xi Nian didn't speak, just looked at him quietly, thinking that it's a fool, it's not good to say something in the first sentence.

"Graduating soon, are you looking for a job?" Liu Cenjin asked.

Xi Nian shook his head with a sad look on his face.I didn't expect the second sentence to be so boring.

"Where do you live now?"

Xi Nian said in a very low voice, so soft that he couldn't hear him, "I rented the house back."

"What?" Liu Cenjin didn't hear clearly.

"I rented back the house you rented for me." Xi Nian looked up at him, put his hand on the glass, where his face was, and said bitterly, "Get out of here, you hear me!"

Liu Cenjin waved his hand, indicating that Xi Nian was still early, with surprise and anxiety in his eyes.

Xi Nian withdrew his hand, sniffed and said, "I'll wait."

"What are you waiting for, live your life well." Liu Cenjin said with his head down, looking at his feet.

Xi Nian said, "Isn't it just two years?"

Liu Cenjin looked up: "One and a half years."

"Well, it's better than I imagined." Xi Nian smiled easily, his eyes showed the frivolity of the past, he put his hand on the glass again, and said softly: "I'm not living by myself now."

Liu Cenjin's eyes suddenly became vigilant: "Who? Who have you been with!"

Xi Nian said, "Do you believe me when I tell you?"

Liu Cenjin nodded eagerly.

Xi Nian smiled and said, "Fan Ziqian."

Liu Cenjin had a strange expression on his face, thinking about how these two subjects "lived" together...

"What are you thinking?" Xi Nian asked.

"Huh? I was wondering, how did you find him?"

"He came to the school to look for me." Xi Nian said: "He has forgotten many people and many things, but he still remembers a little bit, and sometimes remembers some things. The most important thing is that he still remembers me." Xi Nian smiled happily as if he had picked up a bargain, and drew circles on the glass with his fingers around the outline of Liu Cenjin's face.

"What about Han Yu?" Liu Cenjin asked.

"That's it..." Xi Nian said with lowered eyes, "His sister died."

Liu Cenjin's mouth turned into a circle, and he scratched the top of his head vigorously with his hands while being surprised.

Xi Nian said: "Han Yan didn't know that Fan Ziqian was with me, tell me, should I take him to Zhuang Xiaoque's funeral?"

Liu Cenjin nodded without hesitation and said, "It must."

Xi Nian pursed his lips and smiled.

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