NABC Chapter 30 Illusions
Chapter 30 Illusions
Chapter 30
He didn't show up when I was in the most pain, but the memory he gave me alone was enough for my heart and mind, enough to redeem me.
I watched him break down a bit, and my heart slowly became sour.I can forgive you for leaving quietly at that time, but I don't want to forgive you for appearing with a halo when everything was normal.It's like wanting to see how miserable I am without you.
I sat against the wall and didn't watch him casually pick up the book on his head from the pile of books on the ground and read it.I tried my best to isolate myself from a factor called Lu Cang, but this small room was filled with the smell of Lu Cang.I haven't felt this kind of peace of mind for a long time. I am prone to insomnia and fell asleep unconsciously while looking at the book in my hand.I fell asleep like that without the stimulation of alcohol.
I woke up in the dark night, it turned out to be a dream.After so many years, he is finally willing to show me his face in my dreams. When I dreamed of him before, it was always his back or blurred face. I have been trying to forget, why is it still like this? .Do I have to keep dreaming like this to see him?
Picking myself up and sending out the usual cum, so painful.How many times I cried in the middle of the night, fantasizing about his appearance time and time again.Unscrupulously thinking of all ways to alleviate my pain.
I am not afraid that people all over the world will abandon me and hate me.I'm just always afraid that you will leave me.I can't accept that you left again, so you are just like the moon in the night sky, let me look up from a distance, if my sweetheart dare not get it, then let him be like the moon.
When I was pumping oil, the light was turned on, and a figure jumped at me, "Miao Huang, what's wrong with you?" I lowered my head and thought, "I think he's crazy and hallucinating, so I should go to the hospital, if that day What should I do if I hurt someone? Lu Chan hugged me, patted my back like an adult coaxing a child, "Don't be afraid, Lu Chan, I'm here." After he finished speaking, he reached out and raised my head.Let me look at him, and when I saw him clearly, I felt tears flow even more.
I don't know if it's a hallucination, I just don't want us to miss it, even if it's a dream or a hallucination, I don't want you to leave.I looked at him so real, I just wanted to get this man who made me so fascinated without even thinking about it.
Kissing his somewhat dry mouth, I have never taken the initiative to kiss anyone, including the number of times I have kissed Lu Chan, and I can count on my fingers. I have not thought about anything since he disappeared. I don't have any desire for sex like I'm sick.I haven't opened those so-called videos, I think I may be abnormal.But it doesn't matter anymore.
I didn't realize until now that I still have it. I want this 'person' in front of me crazily. I don't know if it really exists.I don't know any kissing skills, I can only follow my instinct and the way Lu Zen kissed me before, but I can't be as gentle as him, I can't do the word "gentleness" even if I want to die. .I bit his mouth.I can't wait to eat his flesh and drink his blood so that we will never be separated, but I don't know whose blood smells in my mouth, and I push the current person away in pain.
She shed tears again, it turned out that it was not a dream, nor a hallucination, Lu Chen really came back.I covered my eyes, how could I let the person I was thinking of see this embarrassing side.
Lu Zen gently opened my hand and kissed me, and I tried my best to respond to him.He hugged me and kept apologizing.
We lingered in that hut all night, and when it was dawn, Lu Chan hugged me, I had no energy to think about anything else, and when I was drowsy, I firmly held onto Lu Chan's little finger and fell asleep.
I woke up with bouts of pain.There is some pain down there, but it hurts more in the stomach.When I opened my eyes in pain, I saw Lu Zen asking me nervously, "Does it hurt there?" I shook my head.I squatted up, and I heard that when my stomach hurts, it will relieve the pain more or less like this.
I know that I have a stomach problem, and I have never been to the hospital.But this time it looks like it won't make it through.My eyes started to go black and I didn't know what was going on.
When I woke up in the hospital, I felt that everything was back to that day, and Lu Chen was guarding my bed just like that.It's just that I can see the distress in his eyes clearly.
I wet my eyes again, and when Lu Zhen saw that I woke up, he became angry, "Can't you take good care of yourself? You're going to die." Seeing my eyes filled with tears again, he immediately asked me nervously, "Is it there? It hurts, blame me. Don’t cry.”
I really miss you, I really want to tell you.
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