The Sun of Rebirth

Chapter 29 2 more

Su Chaoyang froze for a moment, and reconfirmed that he was not hallucinating.He couldn't help being surprised. He really didn't expect Lin Zhan to confess to him bravely. He could always feel Lin Zhan's intentions. His evasion, timidity and confusion once made Su Chaoyang think that he would always be hidden in his heart like in his previous life. Will speak out.

"Do you go back on your word?" At least a few minutes later, Su Chaoyang finally asked him in an atmosphere of silence.He hoped that Lin Zhan would think clearly.

Lin Zhan nodded slowly: "I've been thinking about it for a few months, and I've thought about it a lot. I don't know if I will regret it in the future, but I don't regret it now. If I don't say it... I think about it every day, I probably will never know what will happen after I say it. What will become of my own life, I can only see it if I say it. At least... I am worthy of myself. "

Su Chaoyang stared into Lin Zhan's eyes, but Lin Zhan didn't dare to look at him at all, he wanted to shrink his head.

"I thought you were going to keep running away, but now you come to confess to me, isn't it a waste of all your previous efforts?"

Lin Zhan looked annoyed and irritable, and said weakly: "This is my decision."

"Your eyes have always been ignorant and dazed, which makes it difficult to be intimate with you...a sense of guilt."

Lin Zhan's whole body was stiff and motionless.

Su Chaoyang had put on neat clothes a long time ago, and the cold boiled water in his hand made him calm. When Lin Zhan confessed to him, he was both surprised and delighted. Pure, the most rare thing is that the feelings are very pure.In contrast, it is Lin Zhan's innocence and youth that make Su Chaoyang feel uneasy.

Everyone around you will grow up.

People's hearts will slowly change accordingly, whether it becomes good or bad, something that he can't control even if he lives another 1000 years.

He can only promise to stick to his choice and live in peace.

Su Chaoyang approached Lin Zhan, bent down and raised his head, "Dare you look at me?"

Lin Zhan's face was panicked, his skin flushed.

"Hehe..." Su Chaoyang smiled, "If I kissed you, you wouldn't beat me up, would you?"

"..." Lin Zhan blushed and said slowly, "No, no..."

Su Chaoyang didn't know how much Lin Zhan knew about the same sex, he didn't know much depending on the situation.Everything peeped from the images and materials, to put it bluntly, has nothing to do with me. Those are intangible things, not real.

Su Chaoyang didn't reply all the time, Lin Zhan thought in frustration that he was out of action, his mind was in a mess, and he felt that things were different from what he imagined.What should Su Chaoyang do if he rejects him?Can you still act as if nothing happened in the future?Even the relationship between ordinary classmates is distorted.

Su Chaoyang leaned over and kissed Lin Zhan's lips.

Lin Zhan felt something explode in his head...

What he has always wanted is not the illusion in his heart, worrying about gains and losses.

Like a man, it is even possible to bear a man.

"Hey, you look so irritated... I didn't mean it." No matter how beastly he is, he won't do anything to minors, but today's behavior is enough for Lin Zhan to understand.What I think is really different from what I experience in person. If I am with him, from now on, they will be labeled as marginal people.

Outliers in the crowd.

"Look, I'm a real man. I have what you have. I can't play around openly. If you don't get married, you won't have children. If you get together, you will be criticized, and you won't even be blessed by those close to you."

How will Lin Zhan choose...

Su Chaoyang's confidence was a little low. He felt that the boy liked him, but the weight of that liking depended on what it was compared to...

Which is more important, everyone knows in their hearts.

"...Why are you crying?" Su Zhaoyang looked at the boy who suddenly burst into tears with a dejected look.

Lin Zhan choked up and said, "I don't know... Su Chaoyang, I like you. I have liked you since I was in junior high school."

Su Chaoyang was sincerely grateful, "Thank you."

Obviously he likes the person in front of him very much, and he was so lucky to get a response. The warm kiss made him reluctant to let go, happiness is within reach.

However nothing has changed...

He became more and more frightened and uneasy...

Fear of alternatives, fear of loss.

Lin Zhan supported his forehead in pain, closed his eyes, hoping to calm down.

Facing Lin Zhan's silence, Su Chaoyang was also thinking deeply.He tried his best to put himself on the other side's point of view to think about the problem.Unknowingly, I thought of the previous scene again. In the ward, he was as skinny as a stick, and he didn't see the handsome Lin Zhan in the past at all. He was weak, but even calmer. There was no factor that could restrain his soul in that kind of relief in the face of the imminent death. .

It would be a pity if you couldn't let the person you like know your heart until you die.

At that time, Lin Zhan was fearless.

Su Chaoyang smiled wryly. If he could reach that point in his life, he would rather Lin Zhan live in torment. Only a living life has meaning.

"Lin Zhan, you are still young."

Lin Zhan trembled.

"Some things won't come to fruition for a while. You might as well settle down and do your job well. Your studies and health are the things you should pay most attention to now. Never treat yourself badly."

Su Chaoyang refills a glass of water for the dazed boy.

At this moment, even he himself was confused, not knowing whether to expect Lin Zhan to give a positive answer or a negative answer.

If he didn't like Lin Zhan, he probably wouldn't have the same worries.

"Su Chaoyang...are you afraid?" Lin Zhan suddenly raised his head and asked, staring blankly at Su Chaoyang, as if he wanted to find out the real thoughts from his face.

Su Zhaoyang was taken aback for a moment, and was thinking of the most appropriate answer to him.

Lin Zhan asked again: "If... I mean, if you meet someone you like and he likes you, what would you do? Please tell the truth, don't lie to me, I want to hear your thoughts."

Su Chaoyang took a deep breath, and said frankly, "Of course we are together. To tell you the truth, I am not afraid of anything. I don't care about strange eyes from outsiders, rejection from the world, including confessions to my family." Finding a suitable person is difficult. It is even more difficult.

Lin Zhan looked at him in surprise. He didn't understand why both of them were in the same situation, but he was the only one who was in fear. Su Chaoyang was far calmer than he knew. Why?Is it because your mind is not strong enough?At this moment, he really wanted to be Su Chaoyang himself, a fearless person.

"I want to be with you, would you like to?"

Lin Zhan blurted out.

Su Chaoyang was taken aback, but did not answer quickly.

Lin Zhan was anxious: "You don't want to? I'm serious!" As if wanting to prove his determination, Lin Zhan suddenly got up and rushed towards Su Chaoyang, and quickly kissed him on the mouth.

"I don't want to feel sorry for myself. I like you. It's not wrong. I mustered up a lot of courage to pursue you. What you said is terrible, but what's even more terrible is fantasy. If you don't experience it, you don't have the right to regret it. "

The eyes of the boy who was right in front of him seemed to be shining.

Su Chaoyang stroked his slightly sweaty hair: "Don't dump me."

He didn't want to feel sorry for himself either.

Lin Zhan finally smiled, never before.

Su Chaoyang smiled: "Come and play with me during the summer vacation if you have nothing to do. I'll make delicious food for you and tell me in advance what you like. It's getting late now, you should go back."

The setting sun is still dazzling.

Lin Zhan rode away slowly, Su Chaoyang looked up at the clear blue sky above his head, and had different expectations for the future.

The relationship between the two is their exclusive secret.

After getting the report card a week later, the students gathered on the campus lively. After Lin Zhan helped the teacher, Su Chaoyang and Wang Ranwo chatted and laughed under the tree.At around ten o'clock, Teacher Xu drove everyone to the classroom and handed out the report cards one by one.

"Sorry, I'm late." Chen Luo was the last one to arrive late, and he seemed to have rushed from nowhere with a dusty appearance.

"Chen Luo, come in quickly." Teacher Xu was overjoyed. This semester, Chen Luo couldn't ask for leave every three days or so. He was the most troublesome, but he couldn't force Chen Luo. He thought that under this situation, Chen Luo's grades would definitely drop. .

"You are still No.1 in the whole grade this time, Chen Luo, you can get a scholarship."

Chen Luo took the report card calmly: "Thank you."

The students wailed, and Wang Ran couldn't help laughing: "Chen Luo is too hateful."

The student in front said: "Although Chen Luo always asks for leave, it doesn't mean that others don't study in private. They must be very hardworking."

"That's true."

For the same formula, some people forget it after learning it for a few years, and some people can still repeat it in their mouths.Su Chaoyang is the former, and Chen Luo is the latter.The same is making dumplings, Su Chaoyang can read it once, but Chen Luo can't shape it after two years of kneading.

As for hearing Chen Luo recite the original text of "The Little Prince" with his own ears, Su Chaoyang has long been immune to his learning ability and memory, and he had the same starting point as Chen Luo. Even high school knowledge points have been left behind.

Individuals have their own advantages. He wakes up at four o'clock every morning to study hard, and he really doesn't envy, envy or hate...

"Everyone remember to complete the summer homework assigned by the teachers of each subject. Students who like to swim must pay attention to safety. When the second year of high school comes, we will be divided into classes. I hope you will think about your future during the summer vacation. You can't take it lightly from the second year of high school. You must do your best Go all the way. That’s all for today, see you in the second year of high school.”

"Oh yeah! Freed!"

The whole class broke up in a rush.

Lin Zhan was called away by the teacher. Su Chaoyang, Wang Ran, Xu Nan and others walked out of the campus laughing together. Xu Nan was still working in a milk tea shop during the summer vacation. Wang Ran couldn't wait to take his girlfriend to the movies.

Su Chaoyang waved goodbye to Song Chenxi who was rushing to the airport, and waited for Lin Zhan at the door with a paper report card. They agreed to buy summer shoes in the afternoon and go outside for lunch.

Perhaps in the eyes of others, Su Chaoyang looked the same as usual, but Chen Luo hated what he knew about him, and was annoyed at seeing through the truth at a glance.

Even if he didn't see him talking with Lin Zhan with his own eyes.

But Chen Luo knew that Su Chaoyang was different.

Chen Luo was in an extremely bad mood, and he didn't want to talk to Su Chaoyang at all, but he didn't allow himself to be cowardly and evasive. It was terrible to pretend to be confused, and self-deception would lead to a crushing defeat.

Even if he encountered thunder, he chose to face it face to face.

"Su Chaoyang—"

Chen Luo, who suddenly appeared behind him, certainly looked terrifying.

Su Chaoyang took a step back and got further away from him.

Chen Luo couldn't wait to ask: "What's the matter with you?"

Chen Luo was caught off guard by this air of being in love at a glance.

All the choices he makes again become meaningless.

Could it be that I came here eagerly to witness the new happiness of him and others with my own eyes?

On the road at the exit of the campus, Lin Zhan's figure finally appeared. He ran out briskly, as if someone was waiting for him.

Chen Luo held his breath and finally found the answer.

"Are you with...Lin Zhan?"

Su Chaoyang smiled lightly, calmly: "Yes."

Panting, Lin Zhan ran up to Su Chaoyang, looked at Chen Luo who was walking away strangely, felt that his back was heavy for no reason.

"The matter is settled, but I have to come to the school to help tomorrow." Lin Zhan said.

Su Chaoyang shrugged: "You are too honest, if you don't like it, you can reject the teacher."

"How to do it, it's not a difficult thing."

"Let's go, I'll take you to dinner, there is a restaurant that tastes pretty good..."