irrepressible

Chapter 20 Thank you for letting me see my past self clearly

"An Yu, I have no feelings for you." Lu Rui called An Yu, "Let's break up."

"Break up?" An Yu smiled on the other end of the phone, "Senior, do you think we've been together before?"

"I don't want to mention the past, let's write it off." Lu Rui replied after being silent for a while.

"A write-off?!" An Yu laughed even harder, "It's as if I owe you, senior, did you forget why you were with me? It's you who feel indebted, not me."

"I owe you, pay it in another way." Lu Rui said firmly, "We don't want to be together anymore."

"Tsk, then what am I..." An Yu sneered, "Listening to you, the senior has found true love?"

"It has nothing to do with you." Lu Rui didn't want to say much, thinking of the gauze on Han Lang's head when he went out, his heart shrank slightly, and asked, "You haven't troubled Han Lang recently, have you?"

"How dare I." An Yu's tone was contemptuous, and he resumed his usual rebelliousness. "You are really capable in the third year of high school. President Han found a large group of people to support him yesterday."

"It's nothing, I'll hang up first." Lu Rui didn't want to hear any more, so he simply hung up the phone.

I'm sorry to whomever I'm sorry, he doesn't care.

There is no such thing as first-come-first-served, and there is no right or wrong in matters such as feelings, so what can he do?

Suddenly the phone rang again, Lu Rui answered the phone, and there was a girl with a soft tone and a strong voice.

"Senior Lu Rui? I'm Aisha, a sophomore in high school. I'm in the same class as An Yu. Can I meet you?"

"I have nothing to do with him now." Lu Rui said indifferently.

"Did you break up?" the girl asked hesitantly.

"Yes." Lu Rui couldn't help but smiled wryly, and answered in the affirmative. At the same time, he felt ashamed.Obviously he was the one who brought up the breakup, but now he feels as if he has been dumped.Lu Rui doesn't know whether he likes An Yu or not, he just thinks that An Yu's liking for him is more about possessiveness and stripping him away from Han Lang and the others, he feels scared.And he found that from the beginning to the end, what he cared most about was Han Lang's thoughts. Could it be that the person he likes is Han Lang?He didn't even dare to think about it.

"Then maybe we can talk more." The girl on the other end of the phone smiled, "I'm his ex-girlfriend, nice to meet you."

"... Let's do it." Lu Rui nodded.

In the afternoon, Lu Rui was walking aimlessly on the street alone. His heart was a little empty. He had already met Aisha.That is a very gentle and beautiful girl with a lively personality. Lu Rui thinks she is very good, and from her words, it can be heard that she was very affectionate with An Yu.Of course, now Aisha doesn't necessarily not love An Yu at all, it's just that they are not together anymore.

Aisha told him that An Yu had had many girlfriends, or were ambiguous objects.She didn't care, she used to love him very much, she used to trust him very much, but he also told her that he was just playing for fun and didn't care.She just can't believe and accept that the person she loves and trusts is now mixing with boys, and she still says that she just thinks that boys don't have to be responsible for each other.

Lu Rui smiled wryly. If he had betrayed everything to An Yu in the KTV yesterday, he might be the one who broke up with An Yu today.He raised his head and drank the coffee in the cup, thanked Aisha and blessed her, and then walked out of the coffee shop.He didn't want to think about anything anymore.

In fact, Lu Rui really wanted to go back to find Han Lang, but he didn't have the courage to go.

Because Du Yuan and Han Lang were together, he suddenly didn't want to go, or dared not go.Are he and Han Lang still brothers?Could it be that after talking about a same-sex relationship, he didn't even have the courage to face his buddies?What's more, the relationship between him and An Yu is nothing at all.

At that time, he inexplicably agreed to be with An Yu, as if he was insane.Maybe it's because the two of them spend too much time together, and they're too close, doing this and that, eating, reading, and doing homework together every day, being dazzled by too strong adolescent hormones; or maybe it's because he and Han Lang has been friends for too long, and he wants to change to a fresh playmate and talk about an exciting love; maybe because the pressure of the third year of high school is too great, he needs a vent to decompress.

So he accepted An Yu, accepted a kiss from the same sex, he was also happy once.

However, this does not seem to be the right relationship.

Time, place, consequences, no matter how you look at it, this relationship is wrong.

Maybe Han Lang didn't have any thoughts about him at all, but it was him who had vague thoughts about Han Lang?

What he escaped from was always himself.

After being drunk, dreaming and dying, it is often beyond redemption.

Lu Rui saw Han Lang again, it was in the corridor before class on Monday, Han Lang was still a little poor like before, he was lying on the railing, talking to Du Yuan sleepily.Lu Rui entered the class directly with his bag on his back, without saying hello.There is only half a semester before the college entrance examination, so it's time for him to cheer up.He has to pass the college entrance examination first, and then go to Han Lang, that's what he decided, no matter what Han Lang thinks of him, he will turn back.Although the classmates in the class are still laughing and joking, Lu Rui knows that those guys are actually working harder than each other in private.

Han Lang seemed to have the same idea as Lu Rui, and his chatter before became reticent.However, Han Lang still chats with Du Yuan every day, and sometimes goes to talk to some people in Gu Zichuan and Chen Lianzhong, but most of the time he just sits there quietly reading a book, and occasionally looks at Lu Rui, when his eyes collide. Both sides would smile, and there seemed to be many layers of inexplicable colors in the smiles.The relationship between the two people became subtler and faint, but it seemed to imply something tacitly.

"The two of them... tsk, what should I say?" Gu Zichuan frowned slightly, and winked at Yang Xiaoxian in Han Lang's direction, "The type of quarreling at the head of the bed and the quarrel at the end of the bed was a time ago. The cold war, and now it's like having a fight with the little daughter-in-law again."

"Hey, Xiao Chuan, but I heard that Han Lang is chasing you now, is this true?"

"Aha?!" Gu Zichuan blacked out, "Which bastard made up the rumor again?"

"Cough cough cough...don't worry about it, is it true anyway?"

"How is it possible, do you think I will like Han Lang?" Gu Zichuan curled his lips, "It's not good for me to like someone, I like a man who is a man at heart, hiss—"

"That's right..." Yang Xiaoxian played with Gu Zichuan's ponytail, "But the news I heard is pretty good."

"Hit you!" Gu Zichuan rushed over with a smile, and the girls laughed and rolled into a ball again, just like usual.

Two and a half months passed in a blink of an eye, and I was doing mock papers every day, and there was nothing to talk about in my day-to-day life.

Time is changing them, and they are also changing time. Everyone has to be swept up by the tide of the college entrance examination, exhausting their energy and energy.At this time, no matter how magnificent the oath was, no matter how deep the hatred, it became specious.Only that bit of careful expectation is still in my heart, never faded away...

Lu Rui and Han Lang talked again in the afternoon when they went back to school to get the answers after the college entrance examination.

"Old Han!" Lu Rui said, the name made him feel a little strange, he hesitated for a while and continued, "Are you okay?"

Han Lang leaned against the door and nodded to him.

"How was the test?"

"It's okay." Han Lang smiled, "How about you?"

"It's just like that." Lu Rui smiled, as if a heavy burden had been lifted from his heart, and he felt a lot lighter.

"What are you talking about?" Du Yuan came over and greeted the two of them.He walked towards the light, and there seemed to be a distant sunset in his eyes, emitting a gentle light.

"It's about the exam." Han Lang smiled at him and raised the answer in his hand, "The exam is finally over!"

Lu Rui smiled slightly, looked at Han Lang, and said softly, "Han Lang..."

"Huh?" Han Lang turned his head, "What?"

"Thank you."

"no need thank me?"

"Thank you for letting me see my past self."

"You were an asshole in the past." Han Lang said, looking at Lu Rui's slightly blue face, he couldn't help laughing, "Of course, I am too."

Lu Rui stood by the table, seeing Han Lang carrying a shoulder bag and standing side by side with Du Yuan, he just felt a slight pain in his heart.It wasn't as uncomfortable as he had imagined, just like his finger was cut by a page when he was flipping through a book, the wound was visible but no blood flowed out.

It seemed that the two had walked out.

"Lu Rui, hurry up!" Han Lang suddenly turned his head and called him, "Go to the Internet cafe to play games in a while, I will have a wave with you!"

"Let's go, what are you doing standing there?" Gu Zichuan pushed Lu Rui, "Han Lang called you, I didn't hear you."

"I heard." Lu Rui smiled and chased after him.

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