Inhabit you as a forest

Chapter 59

This winter should be very cold. Before December, the cold wind was so cold that he shaved his face, almost blowing away a skinny guy like Wen Lian.

The house is warm enough, and with a few sips of warm water to moisten, Sheng Qi recovers and feels much better.

She was waiting for Wen Lian to give her an answer.

Sheng Qi thought about this question many times, but he didn't know how to ask it, he was afraid that he would be boring himself.

But now she is not afraid of hearing hurtful answers, no matter how bad the relationship is.

The answer is crucial to her.Because at this moment, she was relying on Wen Lian psychologically, and was secretly happy that Wen Lian was patient with her, worrying about gains and losses.

If the answer is bad, she can force herself to give up again, which is not worth it anyway; if the answer is not so bad that it is embarrassing, maybe she can temporarily let herself get close to Wen Lian.

She needs to know the conditions of Wen Lian's indulgence and concern for her before she can choose to accept or not with peace of mind.Otherwise, not accepting is like ignorance of good and bad, and if you accept it, you worry about losing it at any time.

Why did you not want to have entanglements with her for seven or eight years, but now you are willing, and you are so affectionate?So affectionate that Sheng Qi thought in a trance that he had dumped her back then.

It can't be a simple revival of old feelings, there must be a reason for everything.

If it's what she thinks, Wen Lian was in a relationship before and hasn't broken up yet, so he has no time to talk to her, and now he only teases her during the free time, then there is no need to act like a sea of ​​love.

Just pretend to be confused and just play around.Although it is human nature, there is no reason to blame, but it is disappointing.

It took a lot of courage for Sheng Qi to ask, she didn't realize that her thumb and index finger were rubbing the cup wall repeatedly.

Seeing her small movements, Wen Lian knew that she was also nervous.

So whether the answer is good or not, the result will be completely different.

If she doesn't answer or just muddle through, then after taking the medicine this time, Sheng Qi will drive away the guest and return to the way of getting along before today.

As long as Sheng Qi doesn't want to see anyone, Wen Lian can't even catch her shadow.

Knowing that the person she cares about is next door, at home, passing by her door every day, but she can't even see her face to face.

Sheng Qi's personality is very gentle most of the time, and her physical discomfort makes her more obedient.Everyone wants her to go to the hospital today, so she will cooperate honestly.

But this doesn't mean she has no temper. Once she is determined to ignore others, Wen Lian can't do anything about her.

People hanging on the edge of the cliff, seeing the hanging rope, will not hesitate to grab it and climb up.

Wen Lian sat down, organized a conversation, and answered concisely: "I was forced to go back to Yujiang at that time, and my mother and I often quarreled. I just started working, and I haven't adjusted yet, and the pressure is very high. When I received your call, I didn't think about anyone every day. Li, I don’t want to see you in that state.”

She drooped her eyebrows, recalling the embarrassment and loneliness at that time.

Sheng Qi moved his face closer to her, looked at her carefully, shook his head, and questioned, "If you want to see me, you can set another time, and contact me when you feel better."

But you don't want me anymore, and you don't care about me for a few years.If I hadn't returned to Yujiang, we wouldn't have met each other.

Could it be that "Sheng Qi" is Wen Lian's burden when he is in a bad mood?

"You were very angry at the time and said that you would not wait for me anymore. I thought at that time, you will meet someone better. I didn't do well before, and a new person may be more suitable for you."

Before Sheng Qi came back, she did think so.She's sorry for Sheng Qi, for Sheng Qi, the past will always have scars, so it's better to let her find someone better.

"I don't think I'm worth it. I didn't plan to continue, so I didn't look for you."

"Better suitable" and "not worth it" were understated by Wen Lian, and pierced into Sheng Qi's ear like a sharp knife.

In the past few years, she has also thought about whether Wen Lian is worth her worrying about, and whether she will meet a more suitable person after letting go of Wen Lian.

Her roommate has been in love with three people in four years, and she loves each other with sincerity. Others have the ability to let go of the old one and fall in love with the new one, so why doesn't she.

But when the words came out of Wen Lian's mouth, she felt distressed and hesitant.

Wen Lian raised his eyes, and his usual quiet eyes were rippling, and he looked at Sheng Qi.

"But when you come back, I see that you are happy in your heart. I know you are angry, but I can't help being close to you. So..."

"So there's a big contrast between the front and the back." Sheng Qi finished speaking for her.

This is the answer.The emotions and lives of most ordinary people are not worth mentioning, and there are no thrilling twists and hidden stories.

Sheng Qi swallowed the medicine in one gulp, and took a few sips of water before suppressing it.

There are bitterness and astringency, and the mood is roughly the same.

Wen Lian also knew that such a contrast made her look unreliable.

"Don't worry, I have a stable job now, no pressure, I think I have the ability and patience to treat you well."

"High school is my fault. The two of us, I finally pushed it to you. I blamed you for wasting my time. I was vain and weak at that time. I thought that grades were more important than people, and ruined your sincerity. I'm sorry."

She choked up and apologized.

The matter he cared about the most was revealed, and Sheng Qi was suddenly brought back to that winter.

Not long after entering the third year of high school, grandma fell ill and was hospitalized. She lost her backbone and couldn't learn.She spends half of the week in the hospital, and her grandma drives her back to school, but she is afraid to be alone at home, and she can't listen to class.

She couldn't get involved.

Wen Lian persuaded her several times, but she couldn't study hard, so Wen Lian ignored it.

It's fine if she can't learn it. What Wen Lian can't stand the most is that she is still in contact with Wang Zhengyin and the others.When a new bullying incident happened, and the girl being bullied happened to be someone Sheng Qi hated, Wen Lian suspected her.

Once when he went to an Internet cafe, Sheng Qi was not in the mood to play, so he went to talk to Wang Zhengyin, but when Wen Lian found out, he was completely disappointed in her.I feel that there is no cure for people like her. Grandma is sick, and she is still in the mood to play games.

When talking about this matter during the quarrel, Sheng Qi didn't even want to explain.She knew that Wen Lian didn't intend to want her anymore, so she didn't even ask, and made unnecessary troubles with her.

If you want to add a crime, the explanation is meaningless.

In the year she graduated, she wanted to go back to Yujiang. Province Y is not her hometown, and there is no need to stay in the city where she studied.

That phone call splashed cold water on her body, and she didn't plan to come back after she hung up.

It turned out that I ignored her at that time, just because I was in a relationship with my mother, I just didn't get used to work, and I didn't want to see people.

Only in this way, she can coldly reject other people's expectations.

How simple and realistic these explanations are.

When she is busy with study and work and has no time to be distracted, feelings are dispensable.

Including now, she chose to pursue Sheng Qi after she was sure that she was capable of having a relationship.

Sheng Qi thought that for four years in college, she would definitely not slack off and study must be very tiring.The object in the middle may be just a flash in the pan.

Maybe just like her, stalking and stalking, Wen Lian accepted it.

Once it becomes resistance, it will be kicked away.

As for Wen Lian, who was so motivated, he was forced to return to Yujiang to work, and it was inevitable that he would feel resentment in his heart.

Sheng Qi thought it through very thoroughly, and knew that Wen Lian's choice was not wrong, and he was always sober in the world.

She was admitted to the university of her choice, had the learning opportunities she wanted, and gained more opportunities.

She returned to Yujiang to work to accompany her mother, even if she was unwilling, she came back.After all, single-parent families are reluctant to go far.It is estimated that Han Ruohua is also getting old, and suddenly feels lonely, and wants to keep the child by his side.

After sorting out these things, Sheng Qi knew in his heart that when she became a resistance again, she was the one who was abandoned.

Wen Lian is only temporarily stable, but she is only 25 years old, and many stages of her life have not yet officially started.And those stages may have pressure, troubles, and disputes.

Maybe she will think rationally again, and simply get out of her relationship.

In the past, when I was young, I was dumped as soon as I was dumped, at most it was sad.

Now that Sheng Qi has a thin skin, if he is kicked away when he loves him to death, wouldn't he be ashamed to look in the mirror.

Wen Lian answered very well and sincerely enough.

Although it is very attractive, Sheng Qi asked herself, knowing that a relationship is not pure and firm, and needs the right time and place to be reconciled, will she continue cheerfully?

When Wen Lian apologized to her, her heart softened.After all, Wen Lian who gave up on her is in the past tense. Now that she is stable, she said that she will be serious, so she probably won't give up on her easily.

It should be... Thinking about it this way, she felt very humble.

She doesn't want to be so humble anymore.

"Wen Lian, do you remember what you said that year, why are you being stupid again?"

She sneered, restrained her emotions, and said softly: "I'm not a motivated person, nor a good person. I don't have a stable job and wander around. Sooner or later, I will become an obstacle for you to run towards a better life. Waste time on me and be happy for a while Yes, but it’s not worth it in the long run.”

"I was really stupid back then." Wen Lian choked up just now, but now she was forced by a few words, and she looked pitiful.Although he didn't cry, his voice was a bit crying.

"I don't want you to be so progressive and perfect. It's enough for us to be happy together, nothing else matters. Only when I'm with you can I have a good life."

When she got to this point, Sheng Qi couldn't criticize anymore.

It would be a lie to say that she was not moved. No matter what happened in the past, isn't the Wen Lian at this moment exactly what she has been longing for?

She was about to fall into the trap of tenderness.

Han Ruohua's call came in suddenly, Wen Lian hesitated, and chose to answer.As he said yes, he asked Sheng Qi if it would be okay to drink porridge. Vegetables and chicken would be added to it.Sheng Qi nodded.

When the phone was hung up, Sheng Qi coughed for a while, and made it clear: "If after a while, your mother urges you to get married and have children, and refuses to accept your relationship with me. What are you going to do?"

This question is no less than if your mother and I fall into the water, who do you save.

Sheng Qi didn't intend to embarrass her, she was afraid that Wen Lian would be too idealistic and would suffer again.

Wen Lian seemed to be touched, quickly lowered her eyes to cover up, took a breath and said, "I won't talk to her. Don't worry, she is mentally prepared. If we are together, she will not interfere."

"But if you don't want me. She still wants me to get married, step by step."

Sheng Qi was startled: "Is she mentally prepared?"

Wen Lian tapped the phone screen, "Do you really think she knows nothing?"

Sheng Qi was stunned, she thought that Han Ruohua only wanted to talk to Wen Lian's friends.

"I told her I like you, and she didn't object because she thought you were a good boy. Sheng Qi, I told you before that when we are together, my mother is your mother, and she will treat you well."

Is that so?Han Ruohua knew about the two of them, so he asked her to persuade Wen Lian every time, and often asked Wen Lian to care about her.

"She knows it all, so why..."

Sheng Qi's speech was incoherent, how could it be, Han Ruohua couldn't accept it.

"Even if she doesn't know about us, she will treat you well. She likes your character. So don't say you are not a good person." Wen Lian refuted Sheng Qi's self-report just now.

"So you don't have to worry about her forcing me to do things I don't like."

This was unexpected by Sheng Qi.

She respects Han Ruohua, even though Han Ruohua is stricter, she is the head teacher.

In life, she is gentle and kind most of the time, Sheng Qi thinks she is beautiful, elegant and intellectual.The reason why I hold on to Wen Lian tightly is because I have a lot of expectations for Wen Lian, who makes Wen Lian her only pillar.

Sheng Qi heard from grandma that Han Ruohua had never considered remarrying. At that time, there was a man with good conditions who treated her well.But after weighing again and again, she gave up happiness for Wen Lian.

She said that she only had Wen Lian as a child in her life, and she didn't want to reorganize the family again, causing Wen Lian to be wronged, and worried that her mother would become someone else's.

At that time, Sheng Qi was very envious of Wen Lian. Her mother would rather raise her alone, study with her, practice the piano, stay up late, take her to and from school, and did not give up on her.

Although Wen Lian lost his father, he has such a firm love.

But the love is too firm, so firm that Sheng Qi can't imagine what they will do if Han Ruohua knows about her and Wen Lian and strongly opposes it.

To be honest, even if Wen Lian doesn't compromise, she will compromise because she feels sorry for Han Ruohua.

She must want her daughter to have a relaxed and bright relationship, and she wants to see life continue.

But Han Ruohua was actually supportive, and Sheng Qi respected her a lot.She has to love Wen Lian so much that she can love Wu and Wu like herself.

What Wen Lian said meant that Han Ruohua agreed because he knew he was with her.If Wen Lian is not with her, Han Ruohua will tend to urge her to get married and have children.

Is she so important?

Sheng Qi couldn't believe it.

As long as there is Han Ruohua's support, the possibility of Wen Lian giving up on her is at least two-thirds smaller.

"Really?" She wanted to be sure.

"Really. As long as you can forgive me, I promise there will be no resistance between us." Wen Lian knew that she had loosened, held her hand, and passed on the warmth all over her body to Sheng Qi.

Pies falling from the sky should not be eaten easily after catching them, at least observe whether they can be eaten.

"Give me a little time, please?" Today's conversation is deeper than her thinking, and she needs time to digest it, so she can't be confused.

"Don't worry, I can wait as long as I want."

Wen Lian showed her a cheerful smile, and coaxed her, "As long as you are willing to eat well, let me take care of you."

Being coaxed by her, Sheng Qi felt completely better, with one leg curled up, his feet in dark gray cashmere socks resting on the chair, and he looked up at the ceiling.

"Wen Lian, I feel like a dream when you say such gentle words."

"It's not a dream, so, is it okay?" Wen Lian poked at the side of her knee.

"It's okay to eat. Of course I will eat well and take care of my body. But you don't need to take care of me, and you don't need to do a lot of things for me. You also said that this is between the two of us, and no one needs to accommodate the other."

She didn't want Wen Lian to always make it up to her.The previous intimacy was probably Wen Lian's compensation.

"It's just my heart. If you feel overwhelmed, I will pay attention."

Wen Lian is serious.

Sheng Qi looked at Wen Lian's serious face, and thought regretfully, if only she was not sick.

It's a pity that I can't kiss passionately at this time.

Unable to move her mouth, she reached out and gently stroked the top of Wen Lian's soft hair.

Wen Lian hugged her.