I Have a Reason to Hate Streamers

Chapter 145

The match against ACL had just concluded.

While I never thought we would lose, it was undeniably a match filled with high expectations and pressure.

It would be accurate to say we had passed a significant hurdle.

Since the match had been a complete victory, the team’s atmosphere was quite positive throughout our return.

Even Outlaw, who usually spoke little, seemed to be in high spirits.

Especially Hekate, who was very happy.

She had struggled quite a bit against Sparrow in the spring league.

Having successfully countered that directly, today’s match must have felt particularly refreshing.

Humans are creatures heavily influenced by their surroundings.

Of course, I was no exception.

I needed someone to share this feeling with, so as soon as we arrived at the dorm, I turned on the broadcast.

[Title: Just a Brief Broadcast Before Sleeping]

[‘Sigma Ga-wol’ is live.]

[ON AIR | 00:00:05 | WEBCAM]

Oh no.

I should have set up the camera beforehand.

It had been so long since I did a face-cam stream that I completely forgot.

“Hello! Can you see me well?”

I secured the camera to prevent it from shaking and checked the screen appearing on the monitor.

Aside from being a bit too close, there weren’t any major issues.

Oh my!What’s with the cleavage right from the start?Yes, this is it!

It seemed my chest was close to the camera.

I need to be more careful next time.

Anyway, even though I turned on the stream without notice, many people had come to watch.

Seeing the chat fill up so quickly put me in a good mood.

It felt like warmth was spreading inside me.

I should have grabbed a drink or something.

There should be some beer in the refrigerator downstairs.

If I’d also gotten some snacks, it would have been even better.

“I haven’t been able to stream much lately, so I thought I’d turn it on like this. It’s been a while.”

So where is this?Tenny, it’s your fault we lost again in solo queue.Stop using the chain scythe already!This seems to be Sigma’s dorm; I think I’ve seen it in a video.Show us your room!

“It’s the dorm, indeed. It’s my room. Would you like to take a look? It’s nothing special, though.”

Even though my room isn’t very exciting, I didn’t mind showing it if the viewers were curious.

It was basically a room that hadn’t changed much from what Sigma provided.

I still used the furniture that was there, and I hadn’t really changed my blankets or cushions.

If I took out all my stuff, it would fit into just one suitcase.

The only notable items would be... my pajamas hanging in the closet and a rolled-up yoga mat in the corner?

I should have put away the pajamas.

I hadn’t realized I had hung them up since I had worn them for so long.

It was such a natural sight that I didn’t even think about it.

“The yoga mat is for light exercises in my room. Since my legs aren’t great, most of my exercises involve sitting or lying down. It’s convenient to have one.”

It was something my instructor had given me in the past.

Since I couldn’t go to the dojo, he had suggested I stretch instead.

Other than that, there wasn’t much else I kept in the room.

“The room looks a bit empty, right? I’m sorry if you were expecting something more. I don’t have a hobby of collecting things.”

I had always been like that since I was young.

Simply put, I lacked material desires.

I never thought much about needing to save money, but I also hadn’t had many things I wanted.

As long as I could buy what I needed at the time, that was enough.

Most of what I bought was related to kendo, anyway.

Even electronic devices like my tablet were ones my parents had bought for me, and I had used them for a long time.

Well, even if I had a hobby of spending money, I would have had to put it aside for a while.

It hadn’t been long since my bank balance had started to have some breathing room.

Just a few months ago, I was in a position where every penny mattered.

As I looked at the chat, more and more voices started to gather.

“Do you want to see me in my pajamas? I usually wear them inside, so I’m a bit shy... Um, okay. I guess pajamas should be fine. I’ll just turn the camera for a moment.”

Oh, shadow!Crazy girl, crazy girl, crazy girl!(This chat has been blocked.)No, Your Honor, she tempted me first!

I pointed the camera toward the wall and changed my clothes.

Since it was something I wore often, I hadn’t thought much about it, but it seemed like my chest made the shirt ride up a little.

But this should be fine.

It’s not like it’s too revealing, and there’s no way to hide it.

If I showed any signs of being self-conscious, it would only emphasize it further.

Thinking about it, this is the first time I’m showing this comfortable a side of myself.

Usually, when I appeared on broadcasts, I put in a bit of effort.

Especially when I was with Elderin, I was often half-forced into putting on makeup.

Compared to that, now I was in a relaxed state.

It wouldn’t be good if I became too relaxed, but still.

I perched myself on the edge of the bed and turned the camera back.

“This is how I usually am in my room. So, since I’ve changed clothes, shall we just chat for a bit? I really wanted to get an all-kill today...”

As I spoke quietly, my hands felt a little restless.

I grabbed a pillow and hugged it, starting to speak softly again.

It was enjoyable to have someone listening to me.

I shared stories one by one, and if there were any questions, I answered them sincerely.

In the community, my broadcasts had been surprisingly praised for how well I answered questions, saying they were quite enriching.

That was something I took pride in.

I would have preferred it if the word “surprising” had been omitted, though.

As the broadcast continued for over an hour,

one viewer’s donation caught my attention.

「Soran is a Girl has donated 10,000 won」

「Are you feeling unwell? You look quite pale.」

Glancing at the mirror, it was true.

My skin was generally pale, but today it looked a bit lifeless.

I guess the fatigue had piled up more than I thought.

“Oh...? Now that you mention it, I suppose it is. I guess I’m tired. Shall we end it here for today?”

That’s strange.

I didn’t feel this bad while I was in the arena earlier.

Somehow, this condition felt strangely familiar.

Speaking of which, what day was it today?

Suddenly, chills ran down my spine.

It was a sort of defense mechanism.

No one is immune to the pain of loss.

If I didn’t think of it that way, it would simply be a matter of having lost something — I had to find some meaning in it.

In my case, I couldn’t even have that much of a defense mechanism.

I couldn’t even hold onto the belief that I would overcome it someday.

When the nurse arrived at my call.

I squeezed out whatever strength I had left to ask a question.

I still vividly remember the trembling hands.

Um, is something wrong?No, no need to worry, patient. In fact, it’s evidence that your body is getting better.Getting better?Yes. It means you’ve recovered enough to have your period.Ah... I see.

Upon hearing the nurse’s words, I felt disappointed.

I had hoped it was a terminal illness instead.

If my body was so damaged that I couldn’t do anything about it, my mind would have been at ease.

When I left the hospital, I would be alone.

My dreams had shattered into pieces and been tossed into the trash, leaving me with nothing I could do.

From now on, I would have to endure a long life by myself.

I thought it would surely be a painful path.

If that were the case... I even thought it might be better to just die.

I had considered that for quite a while.

If it were an unstoppable death, then it couldn’t be helped.

If I was weak... it wouldn’t be a waste to give up the life my parents had worked so hard to save.

I wouldn’t have to continue living a painful life.

Well, that’s all in the past now.

If I had truly died back then, I wouldn’t be who I am now.

I no longer needed to envy others to overcome my sadness, either.

Let’s leave the somber memories here.

At that moment, Elderin spoke gently.

“If you’re in pain, you have to tell me.”

“Yes...”

Her long fingers pressed gently on my lower abdomen.

It wasn’t a forceful pressure like the massage I had received before.

Just very softly.

Just enough to feel a subtle stimulation.

She began to erase the pain from the most sensitive areas.

It wasn’t that I felt pain, per se.

Every time my uterus was pressed, my body instinctively twitched.

What is this, why is it like this...?

I had to suppress the urge to squirm and rub my thighs together.

I could hear Elderin giggling softly.

“Did I press too hard?”

“No. It was fine. Ugh... it’s just that it’s a sensitive area.”

“I’ve noticed that you’ve been sensitive in various areas since you were little. Are you just a particularly sensitive person?”

“If you say it like that, I get embarrassed.”

My body isn’t overly sensitive.

It’s just that my senses are a bit heightened.

After receiving the massage, it was slowly getting close to sunset.

The view of the setting sun outside the window.

It was a perfect scene to just sit and stare at while lounging on the sofa.

“But you know, sister, you have a lot of skills. Where did you learn something like uterine massage...?”

“My sister has suffered a lot from her period, you know. It’s too much. She was already a sickly kid, and it broke my heart to see her in pain. I wanted to do something to help.”

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have asked something unnecessary.”

“It’s fine. I’ve overcome a lot by now. You, Daeun, are especially okay.”

It seemed today that Elderin was enjoying her role as an older sister.

After pressing my lower abdomen a few times, she made me a light cup of herbal tea.

I had originally wanted coffee, but I stopped because alcohol and caffeine are bad during menstruation.

If I had suggested drinking, I might have gotten scolded.

I was slightly tempted, though.

Now I was lying down while she cleaned my ears.

I could hear the pleasant sounds of her gentle movements.

It felt refreshing, as if she were gently scratching an itch in my ear.

“By the way, have you noticed your expression has improved a lot?”

“Did I?”

“Yes. Your voice has brightened up too. You look good.”

That might indeed be true.

As my environment changed, I hadn’t felt the sticky malice like before.

I was getting along quite well with my teammates.

Surprisingly, Hekate had also been closing the distance with me.

Though she still seemed a bit uncomfortable in terms of gameplay, her personality was inherently friendly.

You could say she had a high level of basic sociability.

“Is being a pro gamer fun?”

“It is. It was my dream.”

“Right. I’m really glad it worked out. But I wish you would still do broadcasts with me occasionally. Even if you become famous, you won’t forget your sister, right?”

“I absolutely won’t forget the help I received.”

I’m not that ungrateful.

Elderin had helped me during my hardest times.

I was honestly touched when she rushed over after my call.

Even if I become more famous and my life improves, that fact won’t change.

“Okay, let’s do the other side now. Do you want to roll over?”

As she spoke, the pleasant sensation returned on the other ear.

Thinking about it, I realized that I hadn’t had the opportunity to relax like this in a long time.

Since the accident, I had always fallen asleep exhausted, and after becoming a pro, it felt more like recovering my strength than truly resting.

Even when I went to the villa a while back, I had been so tired that I practically collapsed.

I had been running without rest up to this point.

I tend to be impatient and have low self-esteem.

If I stay still, I feel like I’m rotting, making it hard to endure.

But... maybe it’s okay to just do this for a day.

As I slightly closed my eyes, I suddenly felt a soft breath in my ear.

“Uheueheuh...?”

“Wow, your reaction is incredible. Are you sensitive in your ears too?”

“Well, if you touch like that, anyone would feel it. Hmph.”

“I don’t think that’s the case.”

Anyway, the ear cleaning was finished.

After having a light meal of porridge for lunch, I felt hungry again soon.

To change the subject, I picked a dinner menu and stayed until late at night before heading back.

A few days later.

The third strong team in the Korean league, Galaxy Gaming, clashed with ACL.

It was understandable that Sigma’s power was unparalleled.

So what about the strength between the two teams?

—It was a match that would answer that question.

In the spring league, the match had ended with ACL’s victory.

At that time, the power difference between the two teams was literally a sheet of paper.

And in this spring league, Galaxy Gaming had made some extremely successful acquisitions.

With the match result, the commentators raised their voices excitedly.

《 Both teams have been consistently getting stronger lately. There were inflated expectations during the ongoing growth process. 》

《 Today’s match seemed to fulfill those expectations abundantly. Both teams showcased great performances even amidst fierce competition. 》

《 What tipped the scales was definitely Galaxy Gaming’s teamwork. Especially the synergy between Azure and Crimson. The bond between sisters was impressive. 》

Galaxy Gaming emerged victorious over ACL with a score of 2:0.

They were Sigma’s next opponents.