deliberation

Chapter 31

Not far away, Aunt Xiao whispered, "Lin Lin and this Xiao Xu have a really good relationship, but there has been a quarrel recently, and I haven't seen Xiao Xu send Lin Lin home for many days."

Aunt Xiao turned her head to look curiously, but Dad Su stretched out her hand and grabbed her: "Okay, boys, it's good to talk about the differences. What should we do with the children's affairs. Hurry up and go home."

After they walked a little further, Su Lin looked up at Xu Mingzhe.Xu Mingzhe seems to have lost a lot of weight.I haven't seen you for a month, it seems like a long time...

Su Lin looked at Xu Mingzhe, he was standing alone under the big tree, the pale yellow street lamp was switched on, but he was hiding in the shadow of the tree.But Su Lin could see through the falling light that he was looking at himself, although there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, his eyes were no longer as bright as before.It was hazy sadness.

Su Lin suddenly felt a little regretful. He should have responded well to him just now and told him all the things hidden in his heart, but he was also a little lucky. If he had said those things, would he have been even more unable to push this person away.He and Xu Mingzhe are not fools, he can't do it for love, and he doesn't want Xu Mingzhe to do it, so... in the face of reality, their best choice is to separate.Nothing is more sane, and nothing is more cruel.

Su Lin took a deep breath, and then walked towards Xu Mingzhe step by step. He suddenly remembered a song he heard when he was working in KTV; the slow music was like his mood at the moment.That inexplicable song (heartbeat) quietly passed by his ears at this moment, lingering in his heart, but such a beautiful thing, after all, he still couldn't grasp it.

(It's too late to like you from the beginning

white clouds surround the blue sky

If we can't be together forever

also give us at least

nostalgic courage

the right to hug

So that you can understand the traces of my heart.....)

In fact, I love you very much, but I can't reach out and grab you.

There is no beginning, so how can we talk about the end.Su Lin experienced the feeling that what belonged to you once appeared in his life, but was finally taken away by his life.

Xu Mingzhe watched Su Lin approach step by step, but he still didn't have the courage to look into his eyes.

When Su Lin approached, he said, "My dad did this. I'm sorry, Su Lin, I should have told you earlier, I thought I could handle it well. I'm sorry..."

His voice was hoarse.He slowly raised his head, wanting to give Su Lin a smile, but it seemed particularly reluctant.

Su Lin looked at him, his eyes had recovered, he nodded: "Well, I know."

"Did he already look for you? He threatened you!" From Su Lin's calm eyes, he already knew the answer.Xu Mingzhe's heart clenched:

Su Lin didn't answer, just looked at him quietly.

Xu Mingzhe suddenly understood why he could escape so easily today.It turned out that everything was a round, a round that completely hurt the two of them.Dad is really "well-intentioned"!

Xu Mingzhe wanted to laugh a little, how could he be so naive.

"I'm sorry. Su Lin, it's all my fault that the matter has come to this point."

Su Lin was silent. In fact, he was very strange. After meeting Xu Yaoguo that day, he thought that his heart was well established, but the moment he saw Xu Mingzhe's face full of guilt, he understood that he had lost.Only Xu Mingzhe could make him admit defeat completely.

Looking at Su Lin, Xu Mingzhe felt that he should say something.

"I......"

But Su Lin interrupted him without waiting for him to finish speaking: "You go, this is the path you wanted to take in the first place."

Xu Mingzhe was taken aback, and took a step forward to hug Su Lin: "I won't go, Su Lin, I said I would be with you forever, I'm sorry, I know you are innocent, you..." Xu Mingzhe's voice became smaller and smaller. In fact, when he saw the chaos in front of the store just now, he felt a great sense of powerlessness in his heart. Because of him, the one he loved suffered an undue blow. All of his own making.If possible, he really wanted to bear everything for Su Lin.But he can't do it now...

Su Lin's sneer interrupted his generous speech: "Hehe, what am I? How to deal with it? What to deal with? Don't be stupid, we were wrong from the beginning, don't you understand?! Didn't I reject you? But what about you? You!" Su Lin was suddenly speechless.He wanted to speak harshly, although he knew that Xu Mingzhe was not wrong, and he was not wrong, the two of them simply wanted to be together, what was wrong, but if they didn't do this, the two of them would just If you can't get out of the abyss, Xu Mingzhe can't afford to toss, and he can't afford to toss even more.This is not a question of whether to fight or not. Now, they don't even have a bargaining chip in their hands, and they don't have a hand to talk about fighting.

Xu Mingzhe was sad.Su Lin may be right. From the very beginning, he insisted on being together with a stern face, which broke Su Lin's original calm.

But now, all he brought to Su Lin was harm, and the vow he had made turned into a lie, and he failed to do it.What qualifications do you have to say love and stay by his side.

But he just didn't want to give up. When he thought of being separated from Su Lin, Xu Mingzhe's heart ached like it was being torn: "I don't want to! Su Lin, you can blame me, but I just want to stay by your side! Follow up well You are together!"

Su Lin pushed him away. "But I don't want to be with you! I'm afraid!"

Su Lin's words were like a basin of ice water, splashed on Xu Mingzhe's body, and also splashed on Xu Mingzhe's heart...

"You saw it just now. Our family finally got out of the dire straits. I don't want to go back to that kind of life. I'm just a little high school student, and I can't stand your father's troubles. Besides, Xu Mingzhe, you You know, this is not the way I want to go."

After speaking, Su Lin tightly closed his eyes, trying to calm down his heart, he took a deep breath, and then said: "Without you, I will live better, maybe I will get married, there will be My own child. Will..."

Xu Mingzhe punched the trunk next to him, and there was a "dong" sound, which interrupted Su Lin's words.

Xu Mingzhe raised his head and looked at the dark night sky, his vision gradually blurred: "Okay, stop talking, Su Lin..."

Su Lin paused for a moment, but still wanted to finish what he hated the most. "With you, I am not happy at all. I am afraid every day, because it is too painful to face the unknown, you..."

He seemed to utter all the bad words of his life in an instant.But while he was talking, he suddenly lost his voice, he couldn't speak, his heart seemed to stop suddenly, and he couldn't breathe...

Xu Mingzhe looked at his pale face, couldn't help but hugged him tightly, as if he wanted to hoop him into his body: "Stop talking, Su Lin, it's my fault, I know ,you......"

The brightest star in the night sky suddenly fell, and the world seemed to stop suddenly.

Xu Mingzhe stood in the study, while Xu Yaoguo seemed to have expected it, sitting at the tea table, making tea.Seeing Xu Mingzhe come in, without raising his head, he said, "How is it? Have you thought it through?"

Xu Mingzhe didn't speak, but just glared at him. The person in front of him made him very strange, as if he was not the old father who would laugh and laugh with him before.In Xu Mingzhe's heart, he became an out-and-out businessman.Cunning and cruel.

Seeing his silence, Xu Yaoguo put away the coldness on his face a little bit, and said earnestly, "Young man, it's okay to make some mistakes. Just know the mistakes and correct them."

But Xu Mingzhe said, "I'm not wrong, what's wrong with liking someone! My only fault is having a father like you."

Xu Yaoguo's expression instantly turned cold.He snorted coldly: "Hmph! What's wrong with a father like me? Others are rushing to be my son, you boy! You are just stubborn! Let me tell you, if you continue to make trouble like this, I can't help you, but That Su Lin, I ruined his future in minutes!" Hearing this, Xu Mingzhe, who had an angry face, was obviously frightened.

He tremblingly said: "What are you going to do to him! You have already smashed their store, he is innocent! You have the ability to attack me!"

Xu Yaoguo roared angrily, "If you weren't my son, I would have given up on you. Let me tell you, Xu Mingzhe! Although I have no ability to change his college entrance examination scores, I have a hundred ways to prevent him from going to the examination room!"

Hearing this, Xu Mingzhe clenched his hands into fists. He knew that Xu Yaoguo would do what he said. Ever since he smashed Su Lin's store, something in Xu Mingzhe's heart was cracked.

He never thought that one day he would confront his father like this, let alone that he said this kind of bastard style from his father who had always respected him.

Suddenly he had a feeling that the world was different.

Xu Yaoguo saw the disappointment in his son's eyes, but in his eyes, nothing was more important than a person's future.

"Think clearly, if you can make troubles, that kid may not be able to make troubles!" Then he slammed the door and went out.

Xu Mingzhe felt dejected, suddenly the thing supporting him broke, and he fell to the ground unconsciously.From this moment on, it seemed that the light he thought before was nothing but vanity.But reality is cruel.

Su Lin didn't know how he got home. When Su came the next day, his heart was empty and his head was at a loss. He reached out and touched the necklace around his neck, only to realize that last night, he wanted to make Xu Mingzhe give up. , he threw the ring in the river beside the road.Thus announced the end of the two.Returned, lost, lost, everything returned to its original place...