deliberation

Chapter 22

Su Lin and Zhang Huaiyu were classmates in primary school, and they had practiced piano together before.

Zhang Huaiyu knew the situation of Su Lin's family. After all, the circle was not big. When Su Lin was 11 years old, his father's business failed and he went bankrupt.His mother also ran away. At that time, there were many rumors that his mother ran away with a Hong Kong man who was doing business. I heard that he was very old. Of course, Su Lin knew about this from the occasional sarcasm from others.

Later, in the first year of high school, they entered No. [-] Middle School at the same time and became classmates.Just not in the same class.

Zhang Huaiyu took the initiative to greet Su Lin from time to time.At first Su Lin was very resistant to him. He didn't want his classmates to know about the family affairs.He endured this kind of discussion for three years in junior high school.

After finally escaping and changing to a new environment, if he could, he didn't want to be someone who was criticized behind his back.But there is no impenetrable wall in this world. In the end, many people in the class knew about his family's affairs. Although they seldom said anything in person, they never heard the discussions behind them. Fortunately, Su Lin was used to it. Just accept it, accept it.

Su Lin is withdrawn and rarely makes friends.So these few comments did not affect him too much.

After Zhang Huaiyu repeatedly came to talk to Su Lin, the two gradually became acquainted.

Zhang Huaiyu wanted to get closer to him. Su Lin knew that he didn't hate Zhang Huaiyu, and the two of them had known each other before. After a long time, Su Lin was not as indifferent to him as before.

Sometimes when Zhang Huaiyu borrowed his notes, he would also give them.Perhaps because of this, Zhang Huaiyu had an illusion.

One day after school, Zhang Huaiyu caught up with Su Lin and handed him a bag.

At that time Su Lin was taken aback, but Zhang Huaiyu asked him to go back and look again, with a shy expression on his face.Then ran away.

Su Lin had no choice but to open the bag when he got home and frowned.

Inside is a box, very nicely packaged.Inside the box is a watch.

There was a letter in the bag, wrapped in light blue.It looks very chic.

At first Su Lin thought that some girl asked Zhang Huaiyu to give it to him.He didn't know the value of the watch at the time.Intuitively feel that it will definitely not be cheap.

This kind of thing is not something he can accept as a student.He didn't even want to read the letter at first, and wanted to return it to Zhang Huaiyu intact, but he saw that the words on the envelope looked familiar, and he was suddenly stunned.In the end, he still wanted to return the things to Zhang Huaiyu tomorrow.

The next day, Su Lin went out to use the bathroom during class break, and something happened when he came back.

Maybe some classmates wanted to copy his homework, so after he left, he looked through his schoolbag and saw the watch.And that letter, because Su Lin put it in the textbook, they didn't see it.This also allowed Zhang Huaiyu to escape.

Watches are passed around and watched by everyone.The wealthy classmates in the class recognized the brand of the watch immediately. After checking it online, it was tens of thousands, which was indeed a bit too expensive for a freshman in high school.Especially the situation of Su Lin's home, the students are also aware of it.It doesn't make people think about it.

When Su Lin came back, he saw this scene.When he saw the watch in a classmate's hand, he was a little angry and snatched it away.Looking around again, it seemed that no one took the letter, so he calmed down a little.

The boy whose watch was stolen was a well-known thorn in the class. He was a little unhappy and teased in a bad tone;

Su Lin bypassed him and sat back in his seat, ignoring him.Just then the class bell rang.

The boy smiled contemptuously, cut it, and returned to his seat.

After school, Su Lin returned the watch and the letter to Zhang Huaiyu. At that time, Zhang Huaiyu had a sad expression.

The two were silent for a long time, Su Lin still opened his mouth to reject Zhang Huaiyu, what he said was very decisive, not because he hated boys being with boys, but because at this time, he had never thought about who to be with, let alone Who to accept.

The origin of the event is that valuable watch.

I thought it was a trivial matter, but after the imagination of the students, the incident fermented.For the high school life at that time, how could it be wonderful without any gossip.This matter is no longer within Su Lin's control.

At the beginning, everyone said that Su Lin stole it from somewhere.After all, Su Lin's family has fallen, and they can't even afford food, let alone such an expensive watch.There must be something inside.Students' spare time is boring, so they pass the time by gossiping, never considering whether those being talked about want to be mentioned, let alone be vilified.

Later, the development of things became even more outrageous. Some people said that Su Lin was adopted.And then she was taken care of by a man.Some people even said they saw Surin being picked up by a Mercedes-Benz.These nonsense rumors were circulated in the school.The Mercedes-Benz was originally a creditor of Dad's company. He found out about Su Lin's school and came to collect the debt.But those people don't care about the truth at all, they only care about what they hear, who they care about what others say.

Su Lin knew that it was impossible for Zhang Huaiyu to clarify for him in front of everyone.What's more, it involves the issue of sexual orientation.Interpretation becomes more difficult.He has no way to struggle, no way to refute, he can only treat these rumors in ignorance.He thought that after a long time, he would be forgotten.Everything will pass.

However, in addition to talking behind his back and spreading rumors, Su Lin then suffered verbal violence.They started stuffing little notes in Surin's desk.

It's full of foul language.

"Thief", "Die gay", "Die gay, go to hell!".

These notes were like a steel knife piercing into Su Lin's heart, but he couldn't pull it out.Because there is no entry.

Su Lin was angry, he crumpled up the note and threw it into the trash can.

He was later isolated from the class and his desk was placed next to the trash can at the back of the class.Although the teacher criticized a few words, he did not deal with it in essence.This matter is over.

Su Lin sat alone next to the trash can at the back of the classroom. During that time, he became very angry and a little confused. He always wondered why it was him and why all the bad luck always happened to him.At one point he began to doubt himself, whether it was his own problem, whether he was not good enough.

During that time, it was like a nightmare.Let the pool of stagnant water in Surin turn into mud.

Su Lin's books were always thrown on the ground when he left, and the paintings on them were messy. "Everyone" has become a shield for everyone to avoid guilt, because there are too many people involved, and the sense of guilt is small.Because "everyone" is talking, "everyone" is talking.So, "I" is right.

In the end, even the teacher implicitly chatted with Su Lin several times.Teach him that people should look forward and not be greedy for immediate fame and fortune.There have been too many gossips recently, let Su Lin restrain himself.

Su Lin knew that he was powerless to explain and refute.

Whose fault is this.Zhang Huaiyu?Everyone?teacher?Still himself.He didn't want to pursue it.Because he hates everyone!

Back in the class, a boy finally couldn't bear it, and cursed a few obscenities in front of Su Lin.

This time, Su Lin found his target. At least this time, it was not "everyone" who scolded him, but one person.

Without even thinking about it, Su Lin picked up the stool next to him and smashed it.The battle was very tragic, because he chose the strongest boy in the class, and he was punched several times by that boy, which was nothing. He remembered that many classmates gathered around to fight, but a few of them deliberately restrained him. Arm, making him unable to move.Finally got kicked several times.

At that moment, Su Lin really wanted to break the boat. At that moment, Su Lin really wanted to do nothing, and let everyone go to hell together.Only in the end, he went to hell alone.In the struggle, he fell down the stairs.

At that moment he thought he was going to die, but in the blink of an eye, he saw those immature faces, but behind them were all evil faces.Maybe death is not terrible, maybe death is also a kind of escape... "I am not wrong... They are wrong." Su Lin thought.

Surin spent more than a month in the hospital with a fractured skull and a concussion.

He didn't know what happened to the boy who fought with him, because he had never stepped into that school so far, and he didn't even want to think about it.

Because he chose to leave.

And that's the way it is sometimes, when it comes to gossip, you have absolutely no control over it.They gather step by step and rush towards you like a flood of beasts, but you can't stop them.

In the end, it breaks through your body and invades your soul. The damage, although invisible, is often permanent.In my heart, there will always be a place that is tormented by him all the time.

So these experiences made it impossible for him to imagine that Xu Mingzhe might have to face these insults and accusations one day.You can't even bear the pain of having someone come into your life and then disappear.Perfection is sometimes a sin.

The author has something to say: When I was writing this chapter, I felt uncomfortable for a long time. In fact, some injuries are bloody, verbal violence, and personal attacks are all shameful behaviors!Resolutely resist, resolutely put an end to it!I hope every child's childhood is happy.Youth is pure.