Zining has no sound

Chapter 4

five years ago

Shixia was on duty at the emergency department. Although he was busy enough on weekdays, there was a moderate car accident not far from the hospital today, so it was a bit messy. Fortunately, there were no major casualties.When she ran to the next hospital bed to sew up the wound, she suddenly felt someone pat her on the shoulder lightly.

"Hey!"

Shi Xia turned around and was pleasantly surprised to find that the smiling person standing behind her was her friend she hadn't seen for a long time. She quickly leaned over and gave him a hug: "Yun Qi, I'm too busy now, you sit down first." Wait a minute!"

Without waiting for an answer, she turned around and ran away, leaving Cheng Yunqi standing where she was. The word "good" just came out of her throat before being swallowed again, "This guy." She laughed Shaking his head in disbelief, he returned to the hall, found a seat and sat down.

When Cheng Yunqi saw Shi Xia's figure again, it was already after seven o'clock. She walked from a distance, loosening her bundled hair, and the sunlight came in from the huge window, making Shi Xia seem to be glowing. To this day, Cheng Yunqi still doesn't understand why someone can easily give up her friend who is so beautiful.

"Have you been waiting for a long time?" Shixia finally saw Cheng Yunqi, walked over with a smile and said, "Let's go, I'll show you the canteen of our hospital. If it wasn't for Siyuan's rest today, you could still see her."

"Is it so late every day?" Cheng Yunqi stood up and walked out side by side with her, "Didn't you say you had an upset stomach before?"

"Yes, isn't it very pitiful?" Shi Xia turned her head and said to her in a charming tone.

"That's right, it's pitiful." Cheng Yunqi said deliberately disgusted, causing Shi Xia to give him a light thump.

On the way to the cafeteria, there were many people coming and going, and there were many people who greeted Shixia. Seeing this action, many people were shocked. Cheng Yunqi thought it was funny, this person is usually so cold in the hospital.

"There's sweet and sour short ribs today, I'm so happy!" Shixia asked Cheng Yunqi to sit down, ordered and served them, and refused two male doctors who wanted to help, "Try it, I think it's the same as We have very similar tastes there.”

Cheng Yunqi was not in a hurry to get the chopsticks, she waited until Shixia sat down and looked over with doubts on her face, then stretched out her hand, and saw that there was clearly a circle of silver luster on the previously plain ring finger, she smiled happily Said: "A Xia, I'm married!"

However, she didn't hear back for a long time, and when she looked closely, Shixia was stunned, with disbelief all over her face.Cheng Yunqi waved in front of her eyes, afraid that this person would be frightened stupid by him: "Ah Xia?"

Shi Xia grabbed her hand, at least he knew how to restrain his voice, and said through gritted teeth, "You didn't tell me?!"

"I've only known him for a month." Cheng Yunqi gave a reason, she withdrew her hand, touched her ring, and didn't realize that there was honey in her voice, "Everything is too hasty, too It caught people off guard, A-Xia, in fact, I'm still dizzy now."

Seeing her happy look, Shixia rolled her eyes, picked up the chopsticks, smacked the dinner plate heavily, and said angrily: "Yes, love makes people dizzy. But this is the last thing you even know. Is there a reason why good friends don't tell? I still want to be your bridesmaid."

Cheng Yunqi said apologetically: "Ah Xia, I will hold a make-up wedding in the future, you know, my bridesmaids will always be you."

Shi Xia gnawed a piece of ribs, seeing her like this, she stopped pretending to be angry: "Yun Qi, I'm not angry, I can feel that you are very happy now, I'm happy for you, really."

"Thank you."

"Then can you put away your stupid look now and finish dinner with me?" Shi Xia looked at Cheng Yunqi speechlessly and then smiled to himself, and said.

After dinner, Cheng Yunqi and Shixia walked in the square outside the hospital to digest food. It was not yet dark, but the street lights had already been turned on. Shixia exhaled and sighed, "It's so good."

"Huh?" Cheng Yunqi asked.

"Siyuan got married last year, and it's your turn this year, and now there is only one Mingli left." Shixia put his hands in the pockets of his white coat, and said in a very pleasant tone.

"Why is there only Ming Li left?" Cheng Yunqi pulled her to sit on the bench, "Isn't there another you."

Shixia looked a little surprised, then she shook her hand, as if to shake off the tentativeness in Cheng Yunqi's words, and said, "I'll let it go." She scratched her hair, and said to him from left to right, "Actually, I really do I was very surprised, I thought you would be more thoughtful about marriage."

Cheng Yunqi took a deep look at her, but decided to let her go: "I used to think so too, until I met Fu Zhan later, that was the first time I experienced the feeling that my soul was trembling, I didn't want to suppress myself, let's talk , love is innocent, since I have already determined the result, why spend so much time on the road?"

"Then I really have to meet that Fu Zhan, who can make our cloud move Fanxin." Although Shixia's tone was still light, but for some reason, the smile on her face couldn't hold back.

Cheng Yunqi hesitated for a long time, and finally sighed and said: "Axia, I never tried to persuade you to start a relationship again, I know Siyuan and Mingli have told you that you should look forward, but you also always It's been a blur for a while."

Hearing her voice became serious, Shixia just replied lightly: "Where is it?"

"I won't let you look forward, because I know that if you don't want to, everything is impossible, but you can look back at the rope that is holding you down, and then you decide to cut it Keep it. No one can pick the most beautiful flower when they are in a swamp."

Shi Xia was silent for a while, and then actually laughed: "Yun Qi, you said that love is innocent, but my love, from the moment it sprouted, has become the original sin, and I can't underestimate it."

Cheng Yunqi was not intimidated by her deep look, and slapped her on the head, ignoring Shi Xia's cry of pain, and said, "You don't believe in God, why are you talking about original sin? Besides, God has no right to control Something the world loves."

"Okay, I'm starting to sympathize with Mr. Fu now." Tokia rubbed the back of his head and complained softly.

"Axia, don't you feel that you are too passive? You can't just wait for others to come back forever. Yes, Gui Zipei walked very freely back then, but you can't go to her? A plane ticket to the United States Not expensive."

"Cut it off or keep it, it's your choice."

This is not Shixia's first visit to New York. During her Ph.D. period, she came to do academic exchanges with her supervisor. She even met a Chinese girl who knew Gui Zipei. From the first time the girl from Columbia University saw her, she said Thinking that she looked familiar, early the next morning, she knocked on the door of Shixia's room with an excited expression on her face.

"I finally remembered who you are!" Tu Zhou's voice was particularly loud in the quiet corridor in the early morning, "Do you know Gui Zipei?"

Shixia was afraid that she would disturb the mentor next door, and was about to let her in when she suddenly heard the name that had been sealed for a long time: "Who are you talking about?"

"Gui Zipei." Tu Zhou seemed to be sure that the two of them knew each other, "She's super famous and amazing! I met her at a party when I was an undergraduate, and saw her mobile phone screen saver, and took a photo with her Your girl is definitely you!"

"We are, we are high school classmates." Tokia replied with a twitch of the corner of his mouth.

At that time, she was in a stalemate with Gui Zipei with a strange stubbornness, although neither of them knew it.Since Gui Zipei didn't let herself suffer so much without saying goodbye, and now she knows that that person is also hard to let go of the past, then it's better to torture each other like this, whoever survives to the end wins.

Tokia lost.

She dug up the contact information she had exchanged with Tuzhou before, looked at it for a long time in a crowded subway car in New York, and finally sent a message, and the moment she pressed the send button, she seemed to officially declare her surrender.Shixia remembered the topic of "passivity" and "waiting in situ" that Cheng Yunqi had talked to her before, and she did not deny it. In fact, she realized very early on that she was not responsible for all material or reputational gifts. She can accept it calmly, because it is what she deserves, but when it comes to "love", no matter what it is, she will panic and become humble. She never thinks that she is worthy of being loved.Tokatsu tried to find the answer from the source, and then found that he was born with regret, hatred and despair, but love was the only thing he didn't have.

The couple who loved vigorously and vigorously, after years of infertility, gradually fell in love with each other, and finally the man cheated. The irony is that when the woman saw the two pairs of entangled bodies on her bed, she was holding a stick in her hand. A positive pregnancy test stick.The child saved the man for a while, but when the B-ultrasound test revealed that it was a girl, he still left without any nostalgia.The woman was almost crazy, she did a lot of stupid things, when she finally realized the truth and wanted to give up, but it was too late to induce labor, so in the end, she almost gave birth to this child with hatred, and regarded her as a I can't bear the testimony of the past, and I threw her to my father like a mistake, and never came back.

Shixia looked at his pale face printed on the window of the subway. How would a child who had never met his parents learn to accept others' love calmly?Even for the grandfather who raised him, she would feel guilty. If it wasn't because of her birth, why would the grandfather not be able to see the only child until his death?

Love made her too tired, so after Gui Zipei left, she breathed a sigh of relief for the inevitable result. The trial process was too difficult, and she even rejoiced when the death penalty came.

It's just that after the joy, there is a huge loneliness, she can't stand it anymore, and she wants to come to her.

The phone was vibrating in his pocket, Tokia came back to his senses, took it out to have a look, and found that Tuzhou had called directly.

"Hey."

"Tokatsu? Are you coming to watch the ceremony? Just right, I can go with you..." On the other end of the phone, Tuzhou's voice was still very energetic, Tokia was confused by her, and hurriedly interrupted her chattering : "What ceremony are you watching?"

"You don't know?" Tuzhou sounded very surprised.

"What do I need to know?"

"Today, Gui Zipei is getting married."

The subway was gradually accelerating away from the platform, and a huge roar rang through Shixia's ears. Something told her, look, you were abandoned again.

The huge Gothic church looked solemn and sacred. Tokia sat at the end and watched the couple swear oaths, exchange rings, and kiss in the cheers of everyone. It was the best ending, after all, she would never be able to give Gui Zipei such a grand wedding, let alone Gui Zipei didn't need it.

There were white pigeons on the lawn outside the church. After Shixia walked over, they scattered away. There was only one, and it was still lingering on the spot. Shixia looked at it, and then slowly squatted down. She felt that Everything is fine, but the tears keep pouring out, and she can't help it, just like now, she still has no way not to love her.

At noon that day, all the people coming and going outside the church saw a beautiful oriental woman weeping quietly, and many people sighed. This must be a very poignant story.

"Darling, what'swrong"

"Nothing." Gui Zipei turned her head, just for a moment, she thought she saw her old friend.

tbc.

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