Just right

Chapter 34

At the end of the cleaning on Monday, Li Zihao took the trash can to take out the trash, turned around and found Li Shanshan standing not far behind him.

"Is there any other task?" Li Zihao looked at the empty bucket in his hand, he was in a hurry to go home, so every time he was on duty, he tried to finish the work that everyone didn't want to do so that he could leave early.

Li Shanshan is the sanitation committee member of their class. She is usually a quiet girl who doesn't talk much. Except when she is very serious and responsible when doing sanitation, her sense of presence is quite low at other times.

"Ah, it's gone." Li Shanshan didn't expect that Li Zihao's first words would be this. She was very nervous now, her hands behind her back were tightly clutching the corners of her clothes, and her palms were sweating a little.

Li Zihao breathed a sigh of relief and prepared to walk back, thinking that Xiang Zheng would have finished training at this point, and within two steps, he found that Li Shanshan was still standing where he was, with no intention of giving way.

Didn't you say it's okay, Li Zihao frowned, "You..."

The following words suddenly stuck in his throat, and he smelled it. This smell was exactly the same as the scent on those pink envelopes.

It turned out that the girl who kept sending love letters to him was Li Shanshan.

Not long after Li Shanshan entered the new class, she found that her eyes were always attracted by a boy in the class. She liked the way he sat upright reading and studying, the way he stood in front of the blackboard and calmly solved the problems, and liked him and Xiang Xiang. The way Zheng is joking and playing together, she likes his every move.

In terms of emotions, girls are always enlightened earlier than boys, especially a girl like Li Shanshan who doesn't talk much and likes to read novels. She thinks she likes Li Zihao, but she doesn't like the girls in her class who like Xiang Zheng. Boldly asking someone out to hang out directly, the way she can think of is the most primitive love letter.

She wrote all the small thoughts of her first love in the letter, and wrote a little bit every day, and put one letter every day, and it went through a semester like this day by day, but she never received a reply, and her letters seemed to disappear. , she finally couldn't help it anymore, seeing Li Zihao emptying the trash can alone, she gritted her teeth and followed.

The garbage collection office is in a remote corner of the school, and no one usually comes here. Li Shanshan is a little anxious when she sees that Li Zihao is leaving, and she can't just miss the opportunity that came so hard.

"Li Zihao!" She bit her lower lip, "Those letters..."

Li Zihao looked at her, "You wrote the letter."

Not a question.

Li Shanshan didn't hear it, she nodded, "It's me, have you read it, why don't you..."

"Didn't read it." Li Zihao interrupted her very simply, he didn't want to waste time with her here, "I didn't read any of them, sorry, don't write to me again in the future."

After finishing speaking, he wanted to avoid her and go back, but when he passed by Li Shanshan, he was grabbed by her. Li Zihao was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect it to be like this at all, spreading from the grasped arm Feeling that he was no stranger, my stomach began to churn again.

"Li Zihao, I like you!" Li Shanshan also went all out, and she didn't let go of Li Zihao's arm, her voice was crying, "I really like you, it doesn't matter if you believe me or not, as long as you ..."

Li Zihao tried to pull out his arm but failed, he gritted his teeth and endured, "Let me go."

……

Xiang Zheng finished training a little early today, he thought that he might be able to help Li Zihao with some work as soon as he got back to work, because their sports students can perfectly avoid the annoying duty time every time they train, Xiang Zheng has not been an active member of cleaning since he was a child, and has always adopted the strategy of hiding when he can.

He found out that the liberal arts class is not good enough. They counted them as tall, and every time he was not on duty, Li Zihao would take out the trash by himself. The trash can was dirty and smelly, so he couldn't bear Li Zihao alone. People do it.

The recycling place is far away from the classroom, and it is very close from the back door of the training ground. Xiang Zheng walked there with his bag dangling. Li Zihao should come to take out the garbage at this time. He planned to go there and wait. When he was about to reach the corner, he suddenly heard voices inside, he subconsciously stopped and stretched his head to look inside.

"Hey, it's time to cut this tree branch, it really affects the sight." Xiang Zheng clicked his tongue, he only saw a man and a woman standing over there as if they couldn't see their faces clearly, it was probably a good show looking at that posture.

It's a pity that Zhang Zhen is not here, otherwise he would be so excited, that kid has a soft spot for gossip.

Xiang Zheng didn't have much interest, since there was a good show going on, he didn't go in to join in the fun, he just stood here and waited for Li Zihao to finish, when he was about to take out his phone to play for a while, there was a loud noise from inside.

"I said - let go, let go, me!"

Xiang Zheng was about to reach out his hand to his pocket for a moment, this voice...

Fuck it's Li Zi pickaxe!

He raised his foot and was about to rush in, but he was knocked aside by Li Zihao who ran out from inside, and he took several steps back before standing still.He is no stranger to Li Zihao like this, even when he vomited at his house that day.

Sure enough, Li Zihao vomited while holding onto the tree trunk not long after he ran, his arched back trembled with the frequency of vomiting, Xiang Zheng's heart tightened every time he shook.

He ran over and hugged Li Zihao's waist like last time. He knew that Li Zihao would soon lose his energy if he vomited like this, so he stroked his back with his palms and coaxed softly, "It's okay. ,I am coming."

Li Zihao knew it was Xiang Zheng the moment he put his arms around his waist, the familiar strength and temperature reassured him, but the words Xiang Zheng said behind him hit his heart directly, tears were uncontrollable poured out.

"Xiang Zheng...I'm so uncomfortable..."

"I know, I know." Xiang Zheng's heart suddenly clenched into a ball, it was the first time he had seen Li Zihao showing weakness like this, and he hugged him even tighter, "It's okay, it's okay."

There is no way for Li Zihao to go back to the sea to perform in blooming flowers. Xiang Zheng refused to let him go, and took him to a stop by the small river near the school on a bicycle. Li Zihao sat on the stone bench for a while Slowed down a bit, he felt that Xiang Zheng was looking at him all the time.

"If you want to ask, just ask." He pinched his stomach with his hands, and his voice was still a little floating.

Xiang Zheng's mind has been in a mess since just now, with all the things he has seen before and he felt that something was about to come out just now, he tried to ask, "Isn't it because you vomited while watching a movie at my house that you couldn't handle it? "

Li Zihao nodded slowly, "En."

Aunt Chen's food is so delicious, why can't she handle it?

"Then you vomited because..." Xiang Zheng paused and frowned, "Because of those women?"

It's coming, what's supposed to come will come anyway, Li Zihao closed his eyes and took a deep breath, "Yes, I can't see a woman's naked body, I can't stand a woman touching me, just like just now..."

He has never told anyone about this since he found out that he has this problem. He was confused and helpless, and finally he carried it alone. Even his mother didn't know it. He only thought that he vomited because of his stomach. No, I just thought he was blaming her so I didn't let myself touch him.

"Who was that woman just now?" Xiang Zheng felt angry when he thought that Li Zihao was so uncomfortable now because of that woman.

"Li Shanshan." Li Zihao now has almost no reservations about Xiang Zheng, "She wrote those love letters before."

"..." Xiang Zheng reacted for a long time. In fact, he was wondering who Li Shanshan was, before saying, "Damn, it's her."

Knowing that Li Zihao had received love letters for the whole semester, Xiang Zheng couldn't help saying, "It's pretty persistent." It's a pity that he didn't find the right person.

"Then why do you..." Xiang Zheng pondered over his words, "Well, that's what happened?"

He knew that there seemed to be a saying of gynophobia, that is, some men would be at a loss, stutter, stutter and tremble all over when they saw women, but Li Zihao didn't have these reactions at all. No, it seems like it just can't be touched.

"Psychological problems caused by psychological problems." Li Zihao put more force on his hands and pressed his stomach even tighter, "I forgot how old I was when I was a child. At first I had a little money, but one day I wanted to show off to the children with the toy I got before, so I ran home to get it, but..."

"You said why did I have to go back, why did I have to show off, why did it have to be that day." Li Zihao smiled wryly, "I went in and took the toy and ran out in a hurry, when I suddenly heard a voice in the back room, I I thought it was my mother who came back, but there was a crack in the door before it was closed, so I leaned over to take a look..."

He paused for a while, it was still hard to talk about it after so many years, Xiang Zheng squeezed his shoulder and said distressedly, "Don't say it if it's too uncomfortable."

The temperature in Xiang Zheng's palm is the strength to support Li Zihao. He shook his head and continued, "I saw Lei Xu rolling on the bed with a naked woman. That woman is not my mother."

Xiang Zheng didn't dare to imagine how shocking such a young child would be if he witnessed this scene with his own eyes, so he could only hold Li Zihao tighter.

"Lei Xu is not my real father, but he was always nice to me and my mother before. I wanted to call him my father at that time, but he actually slept with other women in the bed where he and my mother slept together in broad daylight." Make|love..." Li Zihao obviously stumbled when he said this word, "I can't accept it, since then he has slowly started to change, and my mother has quarreled with him more and more, He began to look for women outside without any scruples and didn't even return home."

Later, Xiang Zheng heard from him that his mother couldn't bear to be separated from Lei Xu. The more Lei Xu got involved, the better. Now he opened that nightclub called Hei Yao, "Damn Gu Ya is not a good bird." , I didn't expect such a bastard!" Xiang Zheng cursed.

"I refused to enter my mother's room for a long time after that time. I was afraid of seeing that bed. I felt disgusted. When I thought of my mother sleeping with that person for so long, I couldn't even take my mother with me. accept."

"Later, when my mother and other aunts in the venue wanted to hug me again, smelling the fragrance on their bodies always reminded me of that scene, and my stomach felt uncomfortable until now." Li Zihao sighed, this The reason came to him gradually after he grew up a little bit, and after saying it so completely, he could finally face it squarely, "It must have been stimulated to leave a shadow at that time, maybe I have a cleanliness obsession with certain things. "

Xiang Zheng was very silent after listening to these. Every time Li Zihao opened up to him and talked about his childhood, he was so shocked that he was speechless. The hurdles in the past, but all these are all piled up on Li Zihao. He dare not imagine how uncomfortable it will be.

"Stupid?" Seeing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, Li Zihao stretched out his hand and pinched the bridge of his nose, "It's all right, in fact, it's all over, it's just the sequelae."

Look, this person is here again, always talking about those things in such an understatement, how can he be so stupid to comfort others when he clearly needs to be comforted?

Xiang Zheng tightened his arms, resting his chin on Li Zihao's shoulder, his voice was a little muffled, "Well, it's all over, now you have me, whoever makes you feel uncomfortable, I'll make him look good."

It sounds like a child, but Li Zihao sounds very useful, "You have already done this, didn't you beat Lei Xu last time?"

Xiang Zheng gets angry when he mentions this, and now he can't wait to beat Ya hard again, "Damn it, I should have known that Ya owed me such a beating last time, so I shouldn't have spared him so lightly."

"Don't, he has a bunch of younger brothers now, don't mess with that lunatic." Li Zihao frowned, "I don't even think about this person now, there's no need."

"Well, I don't want him." Xiang Zheng looked at him and smiled, "You miss me."

Li Zihao was amused by his serious expression, "I miss you, you are right in front of my eyes."

Xiang Zheng began to play tricks, "Think about it too."

Just like I miss you, I want to think when I want to see when I can't see you.

Li Zihao felt that Xiang Zheng's playing tricks was really confusing, "Got it."

He seemed to be thinking.

……

After that time, Li Zihao never had a letter in his drawer again. When Li Shanshan met him in class, she would keep her head down and avoid him.

Getting closer to the third year of high school means getting closer to the college entrance examination. For students, the college entrance examination is the most important event in their life for more than ten years, and it is a turning point that determines their future. Urgent, they are racking their brains to get you all to get good grades and get into a good university, whether it's for you or for themselves.

At that time, I just thought it was annoying to get rid of these as soon as possible. When I grow up, I realize how good it is that someone is willing to rush you to improve for you, but there is no more.

The second half of the second semester of senior high school has begun to be tense, and there are more and more exercises. All the courses will be completed in this semester. The whole year of senior high school is to review and review continuously. There are many students in the class They are all starting to get nervous, there are really few people like Li Zihao and Xiang Zheng who haven't changed much.

Xiang Zheng doesn't care much about these things, while Li Zihao has good grades, as long as he maintains his level, he will be fine. The teacher also talked to him and said that if there is no accident, he must be the one recommended by the principal's real name this year. Yes, that's why he transferred to No. [-] Middle School at the beginning.

The road to the future is becoming clearer in front of them little by little. When they all thought they could walk as they expected, they forgot that fate loves to joke.

The author has something to say:

Hello everyone, this is not an infringement.

Li Bao is not a woman-phobic, it’s okay to get along with ordinary people, but you can’t touch it [So those who want to hold Li Bao in your arms to comfort them think about it, don’t put it into action 0.0

Li Bao's growth environment made him more sensitive than his peers, so he was even more unacceptable to such things. Physical reactions caused by psychology are actually not uncommon.

Especially the stimulation received in childhood, the influence left behind is likely to be a lifetime.