he only loves my money

Chapter 54 54

"I can't hear." Chen Fu closed his eyes and said nonsense.

Guan Yu said: "All you drank was beer, and you went to the bathroom eight times during the period, and you vomited up early."

Only then did Chen Fu open his eyes, and he asked, "You know I'm going to vomit?"

"I don't know." Guan Yu said, "Guess."

The fact that Chen Fu was able to talk so much when he went upstairs just now proved that he was still awake.He vomited, he just vomited, he was sleepy, he thought for a while, got up and said, "I'm going to brush my teeth."

Guan Yu stood up and supported him.

With Guan Yu's help, Chen Fu finished washing and came back to change into pajamas.Take off completely in front of Guan Yu.Guan Yu bent his fingers and touched his nose. He thought, if he hadn't known that Chen Fu was in a bad mood today, he would have thought he was seducing him.

Chen Fu changed into his pajamas and got into bed, and was going to sleep again. Guan Yu did not give up the opportunity to talk to him. After he called Chen Fu again, Chen Fu lifted the quilt dejectedly, looked at Guan Yu seriously, and asked : "Did you hear that?"

"Hear what?" Guan Yu said, "Is the sound of the sea in your head?"

"...I'm talking to Xiang Wanzhou." Chen Fu is awake now, thinking of Xu Le's embarrassment and cover-up when he slammed into the door, he has some doubts that he has been standing at the door, maybe Guan Yu is also there.

Chen Fu said, "You want to talk to me about this?"

Guan Yu: "Do you know why I liked you before?"

Chen Fu shook his head in no mood to joke.

Guan Yu said, "I like smart people."

Chen Fu was slightly disappointed: "I thought you were talking about the kind of liking."

Drunk, drunk, and sober again, the world seems to be clarified, everywhere is bright, the truth is not so difficult to speak at this time, and emotions are more easily revealed.When Chen Fu was disappointed, the corners of his mouth pressed down, Guan Yu sized him up, but still didn't know if what he said was true or not.

"Everything we say next is the truth, can you guarantee it?"——Guan Yu remembered that he said the same thing to Chen Fu once before, and what did Chen Fu say after that?

My mother is depressed, my aunt uses money to pay for her college education, she has cancer again, the family is too poor, and because he needs money urgently, he has to eat and drink with him instead of selling himself...

Looking at Chen Tingqing's attitude towards Chen Fu, I also know that it is impossible for him to go to college without money...

Guan Yu knew now that Chen Fu's appearance was a scam from beginning to end.

Just like what he said before, Chen Fu still wants him to experience joy, anger, sorrow, joy, separation and reconciliation in a relationship, and the whole whole experience of real love is like an official, making it quite rich.Seeing Chen Fu's disappointed expression, Guan Yu was suddenly aroused again, reached out his hand towards his face, and suddenly pinched him to wake him up. Guan Yu said, "Now you think I will be fooled when you say such things?"

"Stop talking." Chen Fu was pinched and turned his head to the side.

"Don't talk about the topic." Guan Yu said seriously: "...Even as a colleague, as a boss, I have to help employees out of their psychological difficulties."

Chen Fu resisted and said, "Helping employees face to face on the same bed?"

It wasn't because of curiosity, Guan Yu's curiosity was used in other places, otherwise, Chen Fu wouldn't have left him alone instead of investigating his background.Guan Yu wanted to find a reason that both of them could accept, and hoped that Chen Fu could talk about his troubles, but obviously... this method didn't work for Chen Fu.

So Guan Yu said: "At this moment, if you keep silent, the consequences will be more serious, right?"

Chen Fu looked at Guan Yu seriously for a while, then buried his head on the pillow, and remained silent for a long time.

It was a while before Guan Yu touched his face, lest he suffocate himself to death and forced someone to pull him back. As expected, Guan Yu saw Chen Fu's red eyes.

In fact, Chen Fu had already cried when he vomited in the bathroom just now, Guan Yu could tell.He has clearly said ten thousand times to leave him alone, but his body is the most honest.

"I don't know..." Chen Fu said, "I don't know what to do, obviously, obviously he treats me... so well."

This is the root of his pain, reflecting his own selfishness.He has thought countless times that if Chen Tingqing treats him badly and doesn't love him, then he can, as the public say, "destroy relatives with righteousness", expose his evil deeds, and let thousands of people scold him.But what about the facts?Chen Fu didn't know how to choose,

"The relationship between father and son, the way of husband and wife, and nature. Although there are disasters, they will still survive." He tried to understand from the time he knew the characters. Later, he also read "The Spirit of Law" countless times, and found that Still can't solve the problem, so I read books, read philosophy, and think about deeper things. "After reading so many books, I still haven't understood it. Maybe I'm too stupid." Chen Fu continued.

"Speak slowly." Guan Yu found his hand and held it.

"It seems like it's been happening for a long time."

Chen Fu used to think that he was the happiest, his parents were young, beautiful and educated, and the most important thing was that he still loved him.He has not suffered much since he was born, his family is good, and his food and clothing are carefully prepared by his mother. When the kindergarten is on vacation, his parents will take him out to play.Under such double care, Chen Fu was even a little coquettish, and would cry when he fell down or was wronged, so he was often called a "little crying bag" by his parents for a period of time.

The accident happened when Chen Fu was five years old.

At that time, Chen Tingqing had already stayed in school as a teacher, and the school gave him special treatment and gave him a separate office.One evening, Chen Fu was sent to the office by his mother, telling him to wait for his father to come, but she was going to a class reunion, so she couldn't take care of her children.

Chen Fu took a look around in the office, and got into the cabinet of the wooden desk by a strange coincidence.

"I just wanted to scare him." Thinking of this, Chen Fu smiled helplessly, and he said, "I was scared later."

Chen Tingqing brought a girl back and locked the door behind her.At the beginning, he was still talking well, but before he could say a few words, he was pressed down on the sofa.The door lock of the cabinet was broken, and there were two small round holes in the original lock position. In order to make the cabinet close, Chen Fu had to hook the round holes with his fingers, and he witnessed a crime process with his own eyes.The girl just cried, not loudly, and the extent of her struggle became smaller and smaller.At that time, Chen Fu didn't know what they were doing, so he held his breath and hung the cabinet door tightly, for fear of the slightest sound.

Now he still remembers Chen Tingqing's face at that time, which was so unfamiliar that it was frightening.

From then on, Chen Fu didn't dare to cry in front of them. He kept having nightmares, especially after hearing that a female student in Chen Tingqing's school jumped off a building. The dream turned into countless corpses, long hair and dirty blood. The long red nails scratching the blackboard became a sound he often heard.

Guan Yu listened quietly until Chen Fu hadn't spoken for a long time before he asked, "Does he know? I know you saw it..."

"I crawled out after they left that day. I met an uncle at the door, and he took me to find Chen Tingqing." Chen Fu said, "I have been abnormal since then. He is so smart, he should know. But he won't Mention, I also... I haven't mentioned it. I haven't mentioned it once in so many years. I don't know how to say it. What's the use of saying it. Later I figured it out. Back then, he married my mother so early and gave birth to me , it should be... very abnormal."

"It was his fault."

Guan Yu thought, no wonder he felt a sense of intimacy with Chen Fu. In fact, their experiences in this area are very similar, but the things about his family are not worth mentioning in front of Chen Fu. What kind of behavior is this?Illegal crimes have tormented a child for more than 20 years, and he is the kind with strong psychological qualities.

But it's not right, Chen Fu is not wrong, no, has he started to deceive himself?

But enlightenment is still necessary, Guan Yu said, "Because you think about things from different angles, you think he loves you, and his actions are hurting you, and you are helpless in this contradiction. And he, I guess, he can Separate loving you from that kind of thing, they don't conflict."

"You're right." Chen Fu said, "I know, even if he became rich and his status rose later, maybe because of pressure, maybe because of some perverted desire to control, I think... Xiang Wanzhou's sister is not a For example, but I didn't think about investigating, I didn't want to know, I always wondered why he was such a person, and didn't care about his bastard behavior at all..."

Guan Yu: "If he doesn't love you, you will be much more relaxed."

Chen Fu: "The word love makes me sick."

Guan Yu: "Are you sure it's not because of alcohol?"

Chen Fu suddenly looked at him seriously, with a slightly angry expression.Guan Yu was extremely helpless, he said, "Okay, I shouldn't be joking at this time."

"I don't think it's that hard to say." Chen Fu said, "When I was in adolescence, they often quarreled and I always advised them to divorce. My mother refused. She said that Chen Tingqing is so good and can make money. The life of our mother and child... must not be divorced. She became thinner and thinner, more and more sensitive and fragile, hysterical, screaming at every turn, would argue with others for a long time for a penny, and threw me aside, at that time I had an idea that money — it's important."

"I want to see if I can endure many things for the so-called money. I also thought about revenge, such as revenge for the psychological shadow he caused me, or to see where the bottom line of his love for me is. I...I Unlike Xiang Wanzhou, I have taken this step, but he hasn't, so he still has time to look back."

Guan Yu's first thought was "If this is lying to me", but soon, he somewhat disliked his conditioned reflex.Hearing Chen Fu's statement, his heart was twisted into a ball.

"Didn't you not let him know?" Guan Yu said, "It can be regarded as reining in the precipice."

"Because I found out later..." Speaking of this, Chen Fu closed his mouth again and changed his tone. He said, "It's meaningless, maybe it won't shake him, and it's not a nature. He should be sanctioned, not From mine."

So far, Guan Yu can probably know why Chen Fu went to "experience life". He can even completely understand that people bump around when they can't escape, just to find the exit, but this road itself is wrong. .

Later, Chen Fu also realized it, so it was even more meaningless to persuasion and education to him.

But Guan Yu just wanted to know how much Chen Fu had invested in this relationship, and how could he get away with it?

He asked, but there was no result. Seeing that Chen Fu had let go just now, and Guan Yu could only pursue the victory together, he asked: "What did you find? It is immoral to find out that lying to others, or is it because you saw me being cheated by you?" Lied to Tuantuan and turned to feel sympathy? That's why you took the initiative to leave, in fact everything is under your control, isn't it?"

"I can't think about anything..."

Telling those shady things gave Chen Fu the illusion that he was very brave. If the child who used to hide in the closet took such a step, maybe...or maybe everything would be different.Chen Fu thought that he was actually a very failed person, and all this was due to his cowardice and incompetence. He couldn't do anything, and could only live in regret and hatred day after day.But now, that voice was persuasive, guiding him to find the exit, tempting him to come under the light, and telling him, "Speak, it's nothing."

Chen Fu said: "Later, I became more and more guilty, and I didn't want to lie to you anymore. You are a good person, and I didn't want to go too far, so I often said sorry to you later, and I didn't expect you to forgive me. ... to the minimum."

Guan Yu smiled, "Thank you for taking care of the cheated person?"

As if eager to clarify himself, Chen Fu blurted out: "No! I'm really afraid that the people I care about will be sad!"

He saw Guan Yu was stunned for a moment, so he was also stunned, and buried his body under the quilt, pretending that nothing happened.