Ex-Girlfriend Growth Notes

Chapter 31

Although the process is quite... bumpy?But Xu Wei breathed a sigh of relief when she said what was in her heart.Especially Yao Pei'an's unhesitating support made her feel warm.

Although she didn't know how to solve the problems between them, she felt much more relaxed.Didn't a great man say that roads are made by people.

She stood up and said, "Then I'll go back first. I'll go home tomorrow and call if I need anything."

However, her hand was still in Yao Pei'an's. Xu Wei twitched, but she didn't pull it out. Instead, she felt that Yao Pei'an was exerting more force.She could only look at him helplessly, "What is this for?"

"You promise not to leave me." Yao Pei'an looked at her and said.

This request is a bit aggressive, and Yao Pei'an dared to say that because Xu Wei's attitude just now had already indicated this meaning.Even so, I carefully observed Xu Wei's expression from the corner of her eyes to see if she was angry.

"Okay, I promise." Xu Wei didn't care about her small thoughts, and nodded happily.

Yao Pei'an couldn't help curling her lips, staring at Xu Wei with burning eyes, her hands didn't relax at all, after a while, she whispered, "Weiwei, I want to kiss you."

Xu Wei always heard people say that the relationship between lovers will be better after a quarrel.It's a pity that she and Yao Pei'an have always been warm and indifferent, and it seems that they can't even quarrel, so they can't understand it.

But now it seems that there is indeed some truth.

Except when she was in love, Yao Pei'an seldom acted so clingy.Although it is because of the lack of security in my heart, it may not be without some factors in this regard.

Because even she herself, after going through such a long time of tossing, now that she finally spoke clearly with Yao Pei'an, she couldn't help but feel that her relationship with the other party was much closer than before.

——In fact, they haven’t really reconciled yet. Let’s put the agreement aside and solve the problem after the matter is over?

"Don't make trouble." Xu Wei felt that her face was a little hot, and it was hard for her not to think of a crooked place when she was looked at with such a straightforward gaze by the person she liked.

But she had to restrain herself, if she backed down now, those words before would really be in vain.

In fact, Yao Pei'an is also very hateful.

When did this person ask for his opinion?In the past, it wasn't like...you can do whatever you want, but now you have a quarrel, and you actually learned to say this kind of thing on purpose.

However, even though she said the words of refusal, she didn't forcefully want to take her hand back.

From the day she broke up with Yao Pei'an, until now, the two of them have hardly been close.Even when I speak normally, I feel awkward and awkward.

Xu Wei was suffocated before, but she didn't feel anything special.However, now that everything is said and done, it seems that she doesn't want to refuse Yao Pei'an's closeness.

Probably having a thick skin is also a skill, and Yao Pei'an has basically cultivated it to perfection.Seeing that Yao Pei'an's refusal was not firm, he pulled the person into his arms with a strong hand.

But now that the two are standing one by one and sitting by the other, she can only wrap her arms around Xu Wei's waist, "I don't want you to go."

Xu Wei couldn't help but reached out and touched her head, such a cheerful and generous person unexpectedly had very soft hair, just like her character, in fact, she also had such a gentle and coquettish look, only she could see it.

"Continuing to be sticky like this is actually not good for us." Xu Wei thought for a while and said, "You should understand."

Yao Pei'an sighed and looked at her in frustration, "Sometimes I really wonder if you are impulsive."

Xu Wei seems to always be so calm, always able to see the existence of certain problems, and not be confused by emotions.

This is also one of the places where Yao Pei'an feels uneasy.If one day Xu Wei felt that it was wrong to be with her, would she also disappear without a trace.

Hearing her words, Xu Wei's expression was in a daze for a moment.

Impulsive?Of course she did.

……

Xu Wei has probably only been impulsive once in her life, and it was for Yao Pei'an.

Unlike Zhao Shuting and Cao Xiaoyu who quickly moved out of the school to live in a rented house almost as soon as they confirmed their relationship, Xu Wei and Yao Pei'an lived in the dormitory until they graduated from university.

Although Yao Pei'an has teased it several times, saying that living in the dormitory is not interesting, but it is a public place after all, and some things are not suitable for doing.

Especially Yao Pei'an doesn't want to be sneaky and hasty, and always feels that the first time must at least have red wine and flowers, and the environment must be the best.

So although he kissed and hugged Xu Wei on weekdays, there was no further intimacy.

Yao Pei'an probably always thought that Xu Wei didn't want to go further with her, so she didn't ask her in this regard at all.

In fact, Xu Wei was just embarrassed.After all, the education she received from a young age did not teach her how to deal with such things.Although Xu's father loves his daughter very much, the gender is different after all. He even hugged her a few times when she was a child. After she entered junior high school, even physical contact rarely happened.

Of course, it is even more impossible to notice the psychological growth of her daughter in this regard.

Everything Xu Wei has learned comes from the outside world, but for her, these are very secret things and cannot be mentioned to anyone at all.Over time, she got used to hiding in her heart alone, even if she was facing Yao Pei'an, it was impossible for her to speak.

I always feel that speaking out is a very shameful thing.

What's more, her character is somewhat passive. If Yao Pei'an proposed, maybe she would not refuse, but it is really impossible for her to speak up by herself.

However, Yao Pei'an was also considerate of her, so the two of them misunderstood each other like this, and by accident, they dragged it off until they graduated from university.

So when she is about to graduate, what Yao Pei'an is most excited about is not that she has finally left the school and will officially take over the Yao family, but that Xu Wei will definitely move out of the dormitory this time, and then she will have the opportunity to persuade her to live with him.

At this time, almost all students are planning for the future, and Xu Wei is no exception.

Yao Pei'an must be going back to Yunshi.So Xu Wei didn't think about staying in the city where she went to school to work, and directly submitted her resume to Yunshi.

She plans to find a company to work for, preferably one that is closer to home, so that she can take care of her father conveniently.

As for where to live, Xu Wei actually hesitated about this question. She thought that if Yao Pei'an said she wanted to live together, she would live outside and go home to accompany her father on weekends.If Yao Pei'an doesn't mention it, then stay at home first.

She is considering economic conditions.After all, since I have graduated, of course I have to be independent. The salary at the beginning of the job is definitely not high, so there is no need to pay an extra rent.

However, as graduation approached, Yao Pei'an became more and more clingy, pestering her no matter where she went, almost never leaving her.

At that time, Xu Wei didn't understand that this was actually a hint from Yao Pei'an, and it also showed her uneasiness about the future, so after some hesitation, she finally gritted her teeth and decided to rent a house outside.

Otherwise, if Yao Pei'an is in this state, if he goes home, his father will probably find something abnormal in a few days.Xu Wei didn't want to come out so suddenly.

Her arrangement was not hidden from Yao Pei'an at all, so of course Yao Pei'an knew about it.When she first knew that Xu Wei was going to move back home, she was filled with soreness. She always felt that Xu Wei had no place for her in the future planning.

So it was inevitable to get into the dead end, thinking that maybe Xu Wei would be like those people who broke up after graduation, and only waited until that day to open up a showdown to herself.

With such a sour, astringent and bitter mood, although Yao Pei'an was tired of being around Xu Wei, she actually didn't feel very good in her heart.At that time, she still had some second-year thoughts in her heart. She obviously felt that she had been wronged, but she refused to speak to Xu Wei. Sometimes she even felt that if Xu Wei wanted to separate, why should she be in her footsteps?

In Yao Pei'an's imagination, he almost thought of himself as the most painful but selfless person in the world, and every day he played out the tragic drama in his heart.

Then she was able to hold back on her face, and no one, not even Xu Wei, noticed the slightest clue.

Later, when she found out that Xu Wei planned to rent a house, she immediately became happy.But after hearing Xu Wei's reasons, this joy was immediately discounted.

She never asked Xu Wei about her plans to come out.Because in fact, even Yao Pei'an himself would never dare to let his family members know about it in a short time.

Although she asked herself to be frank, in the eyes of others, this was obviously a big trick, and if she didn't secure Yao's position as the head of the family, she couldn't be known for a day.

So she didn't dare to ask Xu Wei.It's just that when Xu Wei said that she didn't want to come out, she still felt uncomfortable.

It's not that she's dissatisfied with Xu Wei, but she thinks of herself again.I always feel that I dare not say anything now, and I have no qualifications to ask Xu Wei.However, she never thought in her heart that if Xu Wei could mention their relationship to others without any scruples, even...even if she was asked to give up Yao Shi, she would be willing.

But she was even more afraid, if Xu Wei knew about it, would she decide to leave her if she couldn't even be firm?

So in this kind of entanglement, Yao Pei'an tortured himself unbearably.

In the end, she had a big fight with Xu Wei.

That was the only quarrel between the two of them. □□It is Yao Pei'an who hopes that Xu Wei will not go to work in the company and open a store by herself.But Xu Wei disagreed, because she couldn't afford the principal at all, and if she wanted to open a shop, she had to rely on Yao Pei'an for everything.

Yao Pei'an gave out the money, Yao Pei'an looked for it in the store, and he only needed to go and hang a name.

It's easy to be relaxed, but it runs counter to Xu Wei's own requirements.

She always hoped that in this relationship, she and Yao Pei'an were equal.Especially in terms of economy, because the gap between the two is too big, she cares more. Basically, Yao Pei'an is not allowed to give expensive gifts, and she has always been careful not to overstep in this regard, making it look like she is with Yao Pei'an Just for the money.

But Yao Pei'an couldn't understand Xu Wei's rejection at all.

In her view, since they are already together, naturally "what's yours is mine, and what's mine is yours", regardless of each other, is the closest relationship.

So she couldn't accept Xu Wei's subconscious "clearing ties" with her.

So when Xu Wei refused, she said unscrupulously, "I know, you have always left a way out for yourself and never took anything from me, so when you want to leave someday, there will be no A trace of nostalgia!"

"What are you talking about?" Xu Wei frowned, she didn't understand how the topic could turn to the back road instead of the back road.

However, Yao Pei'an was about to lose her mind. She gritted her teeth and said, "Isn't it? You've been keeping a distance from me, don't you just want to leave! I know, I've been forcing you all this time. In fact, you You don't like me, you never thought of being with me for a long time, as long as you have a chance, you want to leave!"

Xu Wei was stunned.

Apart from other things, she couldn't refute the sentence "You never thought of being with me for a long time".

It's not that she really hasn't thought about it, it's just that she doesn't have confidence.How long can Yao Pei'an like herself?Can the Yao family accept their relationship, and can their father accept it?

A lifetime is too long, even those childhood sweethearts of the opposite sex who have always been in love with each other will have times when they can't go on, let alone them?

Yao Pei'an took Xu Wei's silence as acquiescence, and became even more furious, "Okay, don't you want to leave? Then break up! Are you satisfied with this?!"

In fact, she regretted it immediately after saying this, but her heart was blocked, and she couldn't say anything about regretting it, so she could only hang her neck and wait nervously for Xu Wei's reaction.

Xu Wei didn't say a word, just turned and left.

Xu Wei can't understand Yao Pei'an's insecurity at all, just like Yao Pei'an doesn't understand her inner self-confidence.

Although she believed in Yao Pei'an's feelings for her, in any case, it would be too much to talk about breaking up.

She didn't want to continue arguing with Yao Pei'an, so she simply left.However, the lesson that should be given cannot be forgotten.

In fact, in their relationship, in the eyes of outsiders, it is always Yao Pei'an who pays more and Yao Pei'an who puts in more.However, no one knew that all the hurtful words between them were said by Yao Pei'an.

Her personality is more irritable, and she is more impulsive when problems arise, so when she loses her mind, she is more likely to speak unscrupulously.

But since these words are not in the brain, of course they will not remain in the heart. After saying them, she herself will soon forget them.

But Xu Wei can't.

The education she received since she was a child made her find the reason for herself immediately after she made a mistake, and no matter how angry she was, she couldn't easily say some things.

She will not blame others easily, but what others say will always be remembered in her heart.Therefore, Yao Pei'an's words that she said and then forgot will keep her in her heart.

So even though she knew that Yao Pei'an had no intentions, but this time, Xu Wei still felt that she couldn't forgive her easily.Otherwise, probably in Yao Pei'an's mind, she would think that it doesn't matter what she said, and then she would become more and more presumptuous.

Xu Wei packed her luggage directly and went to the graduation trip with other students.

Xu Wei was so cruel this time that she didn't even bring her mobile phone.Anyway, their destination is a small town in a water town in the south of the Yangtze River. The estimated itinerary is three days and two nights, just to have a good time and experience the peaceful and leisurely life, so that they will not be disturbed.

Because graduation is approaching, many students are busy looking for jobs, and few people live in the school.Yao Pei'an should have gone home to join the company, but stayed here to accompany Xu Wei.So now there are only two of them living in the dormitory.

At first Xu Wei didn't come back, Yao Pei'an thought she was still angry with him, and didn't dare to contact her, so she could only wait in the dormitory dejectedly.

However, it wasn't until the next morning that Xu Wei still didn't come back, that she panicked, and hurriedly called her mobile phone, only to find that Xu Wei didn't bring it with her at all, so she stayed in the dormitory.

Now Yao Pei'an was really frightened.

Xu Wei had always been very reasonable before, and the only time they got into trouble was when they broke up for the first time.Yao Pei'an always felt that there was no major problem, and never thought that Xu Wei would go so resolutely.

But looking back now, maybe Xu Wei's character has always been like this, and when her bottom line is not involved, she can do whatever she wants.But once she crossed the bottom line, she would never give it another chance, and she was fierce and decisive.

But now is not the time to worry about their relationship.Xu Wei has always known what she knows, and it stands to reason that she would not do such a thing as staying out all night—even when she was in trouble with herself.Could it be that something happened?

Yao Pei'an almost lost his mind, and even thought of calling the police.Fortunately, there are reliable friends around me. I asked a few of Xu Wei's usual good friends at school, and finally learned that she was just going on a trip.

When hearing the news, Yao Pei'an almost softened.She didn't know how many terrible consequences she had imagined in her mind, and she didn't know how many times she had rehearsed. If she really encountered these situations, after finding Xu Wei, how should she apologize to her, how should she comfort her...

In the end, the more I thought about it, the more afraid I became, and I was almost defeated by my own imagination.If she hadn't learned about Xu Wei's thoughts in time, she might have been scared to death by herself.

Knowing Xu Wei's destination, of course Yao Pei'an couldn't wait in place.

Wasn't that what she thought before, and she also felt that she was extremely wronged, hoping that Xu Wei would find out with her conscience and come back to coax herself.But after scaring herself before and this time, Yao Pei'an can't lie to herself that Xu Wei will come back to her.

At this time, she panicked again, feeling that Xu Wei simply didn't care about her behavior.However, it is impossible for her to let go, as he said before.

Besides, you must know that Xu Wei went on a trip with her female classmates!In the eyes of others, this is of course very safe, and it is impossible for anything to happen.But since Yao Pei'an knew that Xu Wei could be with the same sex, he inevitably felt a little uncomfortable.

She knows that it is impossible for poor students to stay in high-end hotels for this kind of travel. They usually choose the kind of high-quality and cheap youth hostels, and they want double rooms or even triple rooms. piece.

Thinking of Xu Wei going to live with someone else, Yao Pei'an felt scratched.I wish I could fly to Xu Wei's side immediately and guard her well.Give her no chance to "make mistakes".

So Yao Pei'an immediately bought a ticket and chased after him to arrest him.

However, it was so unfortunate that the car Yao Pei'an was riding in had an accident.

In fact, it was just the car that broke down in the first place.It's been over an hour since it was fixed.There are so many guests in the car, there are always a few who are in a hurry.

Fortunately, Shi Shi often takes this path and knows a shortcut.So under the urging of everyone, he decided to take a shortcut and make up for the lost time.

However, this road is very pitted, not only very bumpy, but also very narrow.So when they encountered a big truck on the road, it was a tragedy.

In order to let the big truck pass, the driver kept walking close to the side road. Below the road was a clear river.

In the last accident, their car overturned and fell directly into the river.

Fortunately, everyone in the car was wearing seat belts, so although there were collisions during the rollover, most of the injuries were not serious.

However, as soon as the car entered the water, it quickly fell to the bottom of the river due to its weight. At the same time, the river water drilled in along the gaps in the car, and it seemed that it was about to be stuffy in the car and drown.

Fortunately, the bus has ample space, unlike a car that cannot be used.Everyone worked together to break open the window, and escaped with difficulty.

Yao Pei'an was more unlucky.She was sitting by the car window, and when the car rolled over, she hit the window directly, her forehead was smashed, and her hands were severely scratched.

It is reasonable to say that such an injury is not a major problem, but they are now in the water. After the wound is soaked in water, not only is it very painful, but it is not easy to heal, and it is bleeding all the time.

The mobile phones and other items they carried were also damaged by the water.So in the end, the consequences of this car accident were not serious, even everyone was only injured, no one died, but they were stuck on the road, until they met a kind person passing by, they were able to call the police, and then find a car to pick them up .

Fortunately, there were no more problems after that.However, after Yao Pei'an went to the hospital to get bandaged, it was already completely dark.She didn't even have time to change her clothes, so she went straight to the hotel where Xu Wei was staying in a hurry.

She has not forgotten her purpose, Xu Wei is still living in a room with someone else!

Xu Wei was stunned when she saw Yao Pei'an downstairs in the hotel, who was wet, with gauze wrapped on her head and hands, and she was in a mess.

Even if she recalled the emotion at that moment afterwards, she couldn't sum it up at all.

Anyway, all she knew was that at that moment, she could only see that person in her eyes, and she kept thinking the same sentence "she's here, she's here, she's here".

Although he was in a mess, but to be honest, in Xu Wei's eyes at that time, Yao Pei'an was really handsome!

After hearing about her experience, Xu Wei was both funny and heartbroken.She took him back and reopened a room for Yao Pei'an to live in.But Yao Pei'an seized the opportunity and asked Xu Wei to move in to live with her. Xu Wei thought about it, but did not refuse.

Although she made up her mind to give Yao Pei'an a break, everyone has chased her here, and encountered so many "difficulties and dangers", Xu Wei's anger has almost dissipated long ago.

That night, Yao Pei'an kept pestering Xu Wei, and suddenly couldn't bear the words that she couldn't say before and kept in her heart, and said all of them to Xu Wei.

So Xu Wei knew Yao Pei'an's anxiety, knew Yao Pei'an's worry, knew... all her feelings.

It was a real, sure feeling of being loved.I don't know if it's because the night of the vision is too dark, or this mood is too touching, which makes Xu Wei have an unprecedented impulse.

Their eyes met, they didn't know who started it, they started kissing each other, hugging each other hard, as if they wanted to rub each other into their own flesh and blood, no one would let the other.They even forgot the wounds on Yao Pei'an's body, and tried their best with all their enthusiasm.

The hotel that Xu Wei and the others chose was by the river.When you open the window, you can see the clear river water, and when there are boats passing by at night, you can still hear the sound of the oars breaking through the water.

There is something wrong in the tourist brochure, this is indeed a quiet, peaceful and beautiful town.

And that night, in the soft and rhythmic sound of water waves in the Jiangnan water town, they finally broke through the shackles of body and mind, and completely possessed each other.

……

In fact, until today, Xu Wei didn't really know how much shock Yao Pei'an had caused by this breakup.

Obviously it was an oolong-like breakup, and it only took two days from the breakup to the reconciliation, but Yao Pei'an only felt that his vitality was seriously hurt.

The lesson this incident taught her is that no matter what happens in the future, never, never talk about breaking up.Other than that, everything is not a problem.

As for Xu Wei, Yao Pei'an was the first time she felt impulsive at such an age, and even forgot her reason for a moment.At that moment, she thought, for this person, no matter what kind of efforts and attempts, it is worth it.

So after the tour, she readily agreed to Yao Pei'an's suggestion to open a shop by herself.However, she didn't get the initial capital for opening the store from Yao Pei'an, nor did she call her father to ask for it. Instead, she found a way by herself and borrowed almost all her relatives and friends before finally raising it.

In order to open the store, Xu Wei worked from dawn to dusk, and was very busy.She rented a house near the store—it was really only one house, very small, except for the bed and a cabinet, basically there was only room for people to stand.

Under such circumstances, of course she couldn't care about Yao Pei'an.So Yao Pei'an regretted it again.It wasn't because she was ignored - well, that was indeed one of the reasons, but more importantly, she felt that Xu Wei was trying too hard.

That's right, she put almost everything she had into it, broke the boat, and could only win but never lose, so of course she would put all her energy into it.

In just one month, Xu Wei lost weight visibly to the naked eye. Her big eyes appeared even bigger, almost taking up half of her face. Her chin, which was round and blessed, also became sharper. The brighter it is, the more energetic it is, but the complexion is getting worse.

Yao Pei'an finally couldn't bear it anymore, and forced Xu Wei to move in with him and take care of her daily life.

At first she asked Xu Wei to move to the villa, but the store was busy at that time, and Xu Wei didn't want to waste nearly two hours a day on the way back and forth, so she refused.So Yao Pei'an had no choice but to rent a one-bedroom, one-living room house in the city center by himself, and the two lived there.

In Xu Wei's memory, it was a dark time. Basically, she was so busy every day that she went to sleep when she was tired, and continued to be busy when she woke up. , I also feel confused, except for the impressive "busy" and "tired", I don't have any other memories.

However, for Yao Pei'an, it was a very cherished time.

Basically, all her skills in taking care of Xu Wei were learned during that time, and those little habits were also formed during that time.

In fact, her situation was not very good at that time. She had just joined the company and had no one to support her except her grandma. Even those who were on her side held a wait-and-see attitude.The difficulties she has to deal with are actually no less than Xu Wei's.It's just that Xu Wei worked hard, she worked hard.

But even under such circumstances, she still took time out every day to cook for Xu Wei, take care of any place she could think of, and ask about every detail.

In such difficulties, she felt that her love for Xu Wei had not been worn down, but had grown deeper.

This can be regarded as another kind of shared adversity. Although the conditions at that time were limited, the two lived in a small house, but they seemed so warm. They went out early and returned late every day, then ate, took a bath, and gave each other a kiss. Go back to sleep and wait for the new day.

Yao Pei'an felt that she was happy.

……

I don't know if it was a tacit understanding, but after a moment of silence, the two recalled this period of time in unison.

The memory seems to have been softened, all the bitterness and bitterness at that time have been filtered out, leaving only a kind of hazy beauty, like an old photo with yellowing, the light is vague, the expression is blurred, only the original smile is still there.

Perhaps thinking of the past, Xu Wei's heart finally softened. She sighed, lowered her head and rubbed Yao Pei'an's forehead, and said, "Wait for me."

This time I won't let you come to me with all the wind and rain and embarrassment.

However, Yao Pei'an was not confused by the tenderness and sadness in her tone at all. Taking this opportunity, she hooked Xu Wei's neck, pressed a kiss on her lips, and then smiled triumphantly, "Stamp. You are mine now." .”

Xu Wei smiled helplessly, and finally withdrew her hand. Ignoring Yao Pei'an's pitiful expression and eyes, she said cruelly, "It's getting late, let's rest." Then she turned and walked away without hesitation.

However, Yao Pei'an, who was left in the room, quickly faded away from the pretended grievance, touched his lips and showed a silly smile.

Is this considered a real reconciliation?At least what Xu Wei promised never counts.

Xu Wei returned to the room, but couldn't sleep.She simply got up, packed her things again, and found some small things in the closet.

She suddenly remembered that when Yao Pei'an had just moved away from here, Yao Pei'an had called and said that she had dropped some things here.

It turned out that it was not an excuse, but these things actually existed.

An earring, a pen, a bunch of keys, a few coins, and a small ornament on the table. I don’t know when I lost them. I didn’t find them at the time, so it didn’t matter what I thought. things, forget it.

In the end, even she herself forgot that she had lost these things.

Unexpectedly, Yao Pei'an found all of them. It must have taken a lot of effort, right?

Thinking of how she worked so hard just to find a reason to call her, the light in Xu Wei's eyes softened.

Yao Pei'an is always like this, even if it's a trivial matter, even if it looks a little silly, when she does it, it's extraordinarily touching.Maybe it's not because of these little things that move people, but because it's her who did it.

Xu Wei has to admit that maybe the bond between her and Yao Pei'an is deeper than she thought.Talking about separation, in fact, it was just a moment of anger, and there was nothing to do.

She and Yao Pei'an may be destined to live in such a entanglement with each other, no matter who it is, they can't let go.

However, at this moment, Xu Wei's heart was full of peace.It's like a believer who has finally confirmed his beliefs. After that, he can forget his fears and doubts, and be single-minded and persistent.

Xu Wei put the things in her hands together one by one.After doing all this, as if she had completed a certain ritual, she felt drowsy again. She closed the lid of the suitcase, lay back on the bed, and fell asleep with her eyes closed.

Before she completely fell asleep, she vaguely remembered that she had listened to a song with Yao Pei'an a long time ago.

It was an English song, but it had an incomparably moving Chinese name.

While the lips are still red.